hey guyz..im soo bored today,got no mood to study..
im not using my labtop now,dad's using it
damn man!!!im not used to it
stupid,computer ader bagos2 tk nk gune kn..
haiz...
juz now i go to the street soccer court with my lil bro,amin
he wanted to play so much so accompanied him
then we play for onli one hour so its juz a short game
in between,a stranger came by n play with us
so he starts shooting n i start training...again
den me n amin went home n he continued playing
after tat i sign in msn---at the computer,not the labtop
i cant leave without computers
they r a part of me
nvm
den i saw HER online n i saw
"mum......im in love again"
my heart broke
every word has make my heartbeat slower n slower
until i wish tat its stop
then my mind remebered the words tat i saw in her blog
it kept playing with my mind
to that boy used to love...
just forget me...
i dont love u anymore....
and there's nothing that can change it...
no use crying...
be a man...
i hate guys who cry for me...
as if im that good...
as if im evenworth the tears...
u're not letting go...
but i am...
cant u just accept life?
i learnt to accept mine and move on...
why cant u?
anyway,the person who even started about the break-up was you...
aliff told me that u told arinah that we alreadybroke up...
why dont u just listen to them...
end this relationship...
and like u said...
love cant be forced...
if true love were forever...
i wouldnt have lost my love for u
if u stay on being like this...
im gonna hate u even more but to u
i want to apologize...
for the heartbreak and your suffering..
you're a nice guy...
everybody says that..
i know that too...
but i dont deserve u
u deserve someone better
im a *****
and a nice guy like u
should just forget a ***** like me
i remembered it...
word after word
it never did left my mind
everytime i read it
each word took my breath away
my heart cracks every sentence
my eyes filled with water every word
my heart broke at the end of it
yes it is hard to move on
i noe...juz giv me time
i need a break..
if i had one day,juz one day to spend time with u
i would make it the best in ur life
but if tat cant happened
juz give me a minute or two
to look into your eyes
n remember the things we go through
n to say the three last words
but its no use...
everything has ended
everything has gone
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Letting go
by Switched Out
Nothing’s seems so right
since the day you’re not here
Anymore
I never even had a chance to say goodbye
and everything is left unsaid
Just like before
but I’m letting you go
I’m moving on
But I can’t take this anymore
Coz I love you so…
Chorus
when everytime I had this feeling
I’ll always try to pull myself away
and everytime I try to forget you
you’ll always be in my head
I had enough
I had enough
and now it’s too much
It’s too late
It’s too much, it’s too much
It’s too late
That’s why I had to let you go
I had no choice
But to see you leave
and left me with a broken heart
You know how much I love you
I need you and time change
Who we are
but I’m letting you go
I’m moving on
But I can’t take this anymore
Coz I love you so…
*Chorus*
Guitar leads
Chorus
when everytime I had this feeling
I’ll always try to pull myself away
and everytime I try to forget you
you’ll always be in my head
I had enough
I had enough
and now it’s too much
It’s too late
It’s too much, it’s too much
It’s too late
It’s too much, it’s too much
It’s too late
It’s too much, it’s too much
It’s too late
That’s why I had to let you go
Eventhough I love you so
I had to let you go
Letting you go
I had to let you go
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P R O F I L E
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Name:Abdurrasyid bin haron
Age:7teen
Bdae:12/12/1990
Nicks:rasyidiz/rush-it
Status:Single
Skool:Ngee Ann Polytechnic
Email:rasyidi7@hotmail.com
S E V E N T E E N
RANDOM FACTS
RANDOM FACTS
well, i am 17 years old, aren't i?
about me you don't know
ONE clever and smart
TWO blur and slow
THREE ok im both stupid n smart
FOUR kind and helpful
FIVE lazy bum(sometimes)
SIX disorganise and rushing
SEVEN wanted to be organise
EIGHT wanted to be a role model
NINE wants to be an inventor
TEN likes to daydream
ELEVEN likes to be emotional
TWELVE yar i like to be emo...so wad?
THIRTEEN i want a makeover
FOURTEEN coz im a actualli ugly..not cute nor handsome
FIFTEEN i love myslef no matter how bad i look
SIXTEEN i love mylyfe
SEVENTEEN i love someone..guess who?
T O D O L I S T
useful things i hav to do
1) i must to get A for my studies
2) i must to get to university
3) i need to beat somebody
4) i need a new image
5) i need a new shoes(adidas maybe)
6) i need a new watch(adidas maybe)
7) i want a ipod touch
T A G B O A R D
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4/27/2007 03:02:00 PM - Friday, April 27, 2007
hey guyz!!juz now was mid-year exam...it was english man n everyone was dead serious...everyone was studying,hoping they can pass their english...haha...i was one of them n im so worried on my narrative.its been a long time i never wrote an essay..but still i manage to go through it eventhough i was stuck in between..haha,nvm i dun wan to remember the past...
juz now during our break,i saw her n her frenz..stupid guna,dun remind me next time plz??
she looked at my eyes n i looked at hers...her eyes bring me memories from the past..
memories abt the gerl hu i used to loved or shud i say still love...
haiz..
its hard...eventhough i go through tis b4 but it wasnt the same...
maybe i was not gud enough for her..
its ok..i understand
i said tis b4 n im gonna say tis again
goodbye
juz now during our break,i saw her n her frenz..stupid guna,dun remind me next time plz??
she looked at my eyes n i looked at hers...her eyes bring me memories from the past..
memories abt the gerl hu i used to loved or shud i say still love...
haiz..
its hard...eventhough i go through tis b4 but it wasnt the same...
maybe i was not gud enough for her..
its ok..i understand
i said tis b4 n im gonna say tis again
goodbye
4/25/2007 10:27:00 PM - Wednesday, April 25, 2007
hey...man,im so tired...i juz came back from the hospital..for u guyz out who want to know why i went to the hospital n why i went home early yesterday is bcoz my big brother is having an operation..so i have be there for him..well as they say,family comes 1st..
aniwae,as i was at the MRT train juz now,i saw so many couples...
it reminds me of ira..again
damn it man!!!
den i look at my watch--it was 25 april
haiz..n it reminded me of the day on 26 jan
the 1st date i had..
arrgh!!!!i got to forget all of these things!!!
its killing me!!!
why am i still thinking of her when she already dumped me!!!!
AARRGGH!!!!
kk...remember wad she said "move on in live"
even the things she wrote at her blog, i can still remember!!
every word she decribe her thoughts,every sentence made a deep breath
i can still remember...
HEELLP MEEE!!!!
aniwae,as i was at the MRT train juz now,i saw so many couples...
it reminds me of ira..again
damn it man!!!
den i look at my watch--it was 25 april
haiz..n it reminded me of the day on 26 jan
the 1st date i had..
arrgh!!!!i got to forget all of these things!!!
its killing me!!!
why am i still thinking of her when she already dumped me!!!!
AARRGGH!!!!
kk...remember wad she said "move on in live"
even the things she wrote at her blog, i can still remember!!
every word she decribe her thoughts,every sentence made a deep breath
i can still remember...
HEELLP MEEE!!!!
the time to change
4/23/2007 05:21:00 PM - Monday, April 23, 2007
hey guyz,juz came from skool...haiz,not in the mood as u noe y..
im still tink abt her..i cant sleep yesterdae night,come on lah its onli been a day!!
give me time will u??!!
sigh...nvm,no use argueing
i've tried to delete her pic,burn her letters but i cant do it..
the best thing i've done is gave her back her our aniversary card..
i cant let it go..i dunnoe why..
i noe its sound ridiculous but it's true..
time have change n things have to move on
she made her point,move on
love cannot be forced...
wad can i do..its my luck
n wad a bad luck...
things has changed n wad has pass had past
nuthing can change it but we can onli change the future
im still tink abt her..i cant sleep yesterdae night,come on lah its onli been a day!!
give me time will u??!!
sigh...nvm,no use argueing
i've tried to delete her pic,burn her letters but i cant do it..
the best thing i've done is gave her back her our aniversary card..
i cant let it go..i dunnoe why..
i noe its sound ridiculous but it's true..
time have change n things have to move on
she made her point,move on
love cannot be forced...
wad can i do..its my luck
n wad a bad luck...
things has changed n wad has pass had past
nuthing can change it but we can onli change the future
time has fly n onli it left us with memories
memories i hope to forget but still in my mind n mainly on my heart
time is needed to wash it away but some how the memories either stays or cleared or it will even returned...
goodbye
4/22/2007 10:27:00 PM - Sunday, April 22, 2007
to the person i love most:
thank you for telling me truth n how u felt
now i understand
but why never told me?
u noe i can help u...
haiz...no use telling me now,n no use argueing
n for ur info,i'll never tell arinah we've broke up
if tis is true,y am i crying for u??
stop blaming it to others n start blaming it on urself
n i shud also coz im also at wrong
im sori im not there for u wen u needed me most
im sori for the things i've done to made u sad
n im sori to be in love with u..
if i didnt,than tis wudnt happened
well than,tats it...
every effort i've made has gone down the drain..
every moment we've spend time together has been crushed
every second being with had made my lyfe shine
but thx aniwae,for letting me feel the true love from a gerl
there is onli one word to say now
goodbye..
thank you for telling me truth n how u felt
now i understand
but why never told me?
u noe i can help u...
haiz...no use telling me now,n no use argueing
n for ur info,i'll never tell arinah we've broke up
if tis is true,y am i crying for u??
stop blaming it to others n start blaming it on urself
n i shud also coz im also at wrong
im sori im not there for u wen u needed me most
im sori for the things i've done to made u sad
n im sori to be in love with u..
if i didnt,than tis wudnt happened
well than,tats it...
every effort i've made has gone down the drain..
every moment we've spend time together has been crushed
every second being with had made my lyfe shine
but thx aniwae,for letting me feel the true love from a gerl
there is onli one word to say now
goodbye..
the day of truth
4/20/2007 06:01:00 PM - Friday, April 20, 2007
hey guyz..i change my font,for the sake of seeing...haha,too small for u guyz to see
i juz came back from swimming,juz now at mosque khairil ask me wheather i wan to go to swimming...so i agreed coz i got nuthing to do later..
it was fun man!!!haha..its been a long time i never go to swimming..
i found out tat i've grown..the pool look deep in the past but now i realise tat im taller now i can reached to the deepest area..haha,i cant belived i've grown
juz now at skool was unlucky...again
hmm...let me recall wad happen,k 1st my group have to present abt caring day n i forgot abt my reflection,so i juz say it from the bottom of my heart..but tat wasn't tat bad...
2nd,i saw ida crying,again..haris!!stop playing with her heart!!!
n last but not least...myself,i wanted to see ira juz now after skool but she juz disappeared into thin air..i search her every where,every possible place but she juz wasn't there...
baby why r u doin tis to me??
wad did i do wrong??
how long u wan to make me suffer?
how long u wan to be like tis?
im suffering..
n u juz dun care abt me......
why?
im not letting u go until i noe why u refused to tok to me
n we r still attached to each other...
u'r telling everyone tat we broke up wen we're not!!!
baby plz...tell me watz bothering u..
a lot of ppl encourage me to end tis relationship but i choose to stay on..
coz i never love a girl so much
i love u
i juz came back from swimming,juz now at mosque khairil ask me wheather i wan to go to swimming...so i agreed coz i got nuthing to do later..
it was fun man!!!haha..its been a long time i never go to swimming..
i found out tat i've grown..the pool look deep in the past but now i realise tat im taller now i can reached to the deepest area..haha,i cant belived i've grown
juz now at skool was unlucky...again
hmm...let me recall wad happen,k 1st my group have to present abt caring day n i forgot abt my reflection,so i juz say it from the bottom of my heart..but tat wasn't tat bad...
2nd,i saw ida crying,again..haris!!stop playing with her heart!!!
n last but not least...myself,i wanted to see ira juz now after skool but she juz disappeared into thin air..i search her every where,every possible place but she juz wasn't there...
baby why r u doin tis to me??
wad did i do wrong??
how long u wan to make me suffer?
how long u wan to be like tis?
im suffering..
n u juz dun care abt me......
why?
im not letting u go until i noe why u refused to tok to me
n we r still attached to each other...
u'r telling everyone tat we broke up wen we're not!!!
baby plz...tell me watz bothering u..
a lot of ppl encourage me to end tis relationship but i choose to stay on..
coz i never love a girl so much
i love u
the day of embarassment
4/18/2007 08:48:00 PM - Wednesday, April 18, 2007
hye guyz...todae was a horrible disaster n a total embarassment!!!i fell down from my bike tis morning at the entrance of the skool..damn!!im bleeding everywhere,esp on my right hand..haiz..cant write properly juz now,haha...n juz now was PE day..i dun have the mood to take napfa test..some say i'm trying to step macho but an accident is still an accident...
everyone's having probz
4/17/2007 08:02:00 PM - Tuesday, April 17, 2007
hey guyz..its been a long time i didnt update my blog..been moody these past few dayz,haiz....everyone's having his or her own probz.ida got her own probs with harris sampaikn dier menangis seh..kecian dier,tat was the 1st time i saw her crying bcoz of a guy..poor gerl.
den dilla also has her own probz..Ari!!stop shouting to a gerl lar!!plz lah...repect gerlz,they might be in the wrong position but u can tok nicely wad??!!hah...
as for me...i dunnoe..
i cant belive tat i cried at skool juz now..
i noe u guyz tink its odd to see a guy crying but i got nothing else to do other than to cry..
ida,dilla n kangsheng were there wen i cried..
bcoz of wad??bcoz of ira...she realli made me suffer
everyone's having probz in the same period of time...
den at class i wasted the whole 2 hours tinking abt myself...
sigh.....
life is never fair
the people you love may be the ones hu make u suffer most
my love is not perfect
but i can make sure tat u will be the only one i want...
come back to me
don't leave me
i wan u to see
how big my love can be
baby i want u to know
that i don't wan to let go
i've missed u since u left
coz it's u tat i don't have
gerl do u know im suffering
r u crying or r u laughing??
how can u keep on ignoring
when u know im dying
wad wrong have i done
even when we r going on for months
i wanna say sorry if i did something wrong
i didnt realise my mistake all along
its seem it's useless writting tis song
wen i know tat u'r gone...
den dilla also has her own probz..Ari!!stop shouting to a gerl lar!!plz lah...repect gerlz,they might be in the wrong position but u can tok nicely wad??!!hah...
as for me...i dunnoe..
i cant belive tat i cried at skool juz now..
i noe u guyz tink its odd to see a guy crying but i got nothing else to do other than to cry..
ida,dilla n kangsheng were there wen i cried..
bcoz of wad??bcoz of ira...she realli made me suffer
everyone's having probz in the same period of time...
den at class i wasted the whole 2 hours tinking abt myself...
sigh.....
life is never fair
the people you love may be the ones hu make u suffer most
my love is not perfect
but i can make sure tat u will be the only one i want...
come back to me
don't leave me
i wan u to see
how big my love can be
baby i want u to know
that i don't wan to let go
i've missed u since u left
coz it's u tat i don't have
gerl do u know im suffering
r u crying or r u laughing??
how can u keep on ignoring
when u know im dying
wad wrong have i done
even when we r going on for months
i wanna say sorry if i did something wrong
i didnt realise my mistake all along
its seem it's useless writting tis song
wen i know tat u'r gone...
boring day...
4/13/2007 06:17:00 PM - Friday, April 13, 2007
haizz..its was a boring week for me...its like everything come tumbling down in the same time..i dunoe how to cope...1st the nafa test 2.4 km run...i was one of the last boyz to finished off...come on man!!i can do better than that??!!but i juz recovered from my sickness...i've been sleepy these few dayz,either didnt get enough sleep or im too weak to do anything else...haiz...got to buck up man!!!juz now i saw dilla do her essay...wad a good student she is..she do it every week without fail..she has changed a lot..in the past i saw her struggling but now i saw her very relek onli...its like she can do her essay very well with her eyes close..maybe it all voice down to discipline...i sooo jealous of her bcoz of tat...i nid to be discipline like her...i need to focus on my studies...but i cant...with all the problems is weighing my shoulder...my gal is still not toking to me n bcoz of tat i cant focus in class...i cant do tis,i still have to know the truth!!
the sick day............
4/08/2007 10:04:00 PM - Sunday, April 8, 2007
im sick and i feel lyke puking anytime now...i cant help it!!my stomach is killing me...haiz...still tinking abt her...i even dreamt abt her..maybe i missed her present,her laugh,her smile n her love...my fever might had gone down,but im still dizzy....im not coming to skool tomorow...i ask fadzil to keep my hw for me...my head is still spinning,my brain is like heavier than my body weight...i got to rest now...
my distress nite...07/04/2007
4/07/2007 12:40:00 AM - Saturday, April 7, 2007
hey..its been a stressful,frustrating n unlucky week...todae is the onli dae i can distress myself..im at my cuzzie house...playing xbox n playing computer gamez..haiz..there r alot of thingz here i can distress..i got a new song tat matches my situation...sayangku..
apex day n a frustrating day
4/05/2007 10:32:00 PM - Thursday, April 5, 2007
hye...wad a tiring dae...todae was apex day n i was participating in swimming event..my gal was there oso...not to support me but she was also participating...b4 my event start,i had a arguement wit her..she is stubborn n refuse to tok to me...she said nuthing's wrong but i noe sumthing's wrong...during my event,i can kept thinking abt her until i got a headache n i almost drowned...but im ok now...after apex day i go to long john silver with taqeem,fadzil,zaini n his gf...den my gal came n we tok again..no,i tok not her....but juz left bcoz i cant take it animore...she wun tell me wat's wrong...i can't take it anymore....no more..plz,dun treat me like tis........
probz...probz n more probz
4/03/2007 09:46:00 PM - Tuesday, April 3, 2007
hye...feeling moody todae..everyone is having a probz n i hav to help everyone...faris got a prob with his gerl..suriani felt sad bcoz her close fren do a stupid mistake n commit a crime...hankercheif aku pulak lost her "special fren"...everyone's having prob...even i myself...i can feel tat my baby is trying to avoid me...its been a week i never kol her...okok my fault but i kol her wad...alwayz enggage or she is sleeping...haiz...wen i wan to tok to her at skool,her face like she dun like me....AAARRGGHH!!!EVERYONE IS HAVING PROBZ!!!N IN THE SAME TIME!!!!!!!
TRAINING TIME!!!!!!!
4/01/2007 05:36:00 PM - Sunday, April 1, 2007
walauwei!!!so penat sial!!!juz now i go my 1st training for nssl..halim taught me various ways to block the ball..not onli halim,but zaini,kwee ming n the rest of them hu came taught me...i never thought tat training can be tis tough n i never tot tat im so open n a player has a large possibility to score...haiz...nvm,i'll train more harder to win tis competition...but now i wan to rest..my hands r tired man!!!!!
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