heyhey...
guess wad im doing now?
yes ur rite...nothing...
n o t h i n g...
haiz...
BORRING!!!
u noe today i went to msn n found out tat no one
NO ONE from my class in online!!!
ARRGHH
how frustrating izit!!
everybody have sumthing to do..
either they hyav a job or they'r going for a holiday..
n me??!!!
ahiz...alone with the damn comp infront of me..
i looked at the monitor n the monitor look at me..
wat to do...
no job...
no kol for job..
no nothing!!!
nothing!!!!
my hair also got dandruff already...
stress!!!!
help me god!!help me!!
i need a JOB!!!
IM BROKE N EVERYBODY GOT SUMTHING TO DO !!!
ARRGHH!!!

not in the mood..
i noe..its ridiculos but yea
n i tot after o lvl i can b happy
but i juz cant
nuthings been lucky for me
im jobless n useless..
everything i do is not rite...
my parents getting more n more angry at me
n my sis hav become more n more pathetic..
im begining to hate her more..
dun try to counsel me bcoz of my sis..
belive me..dun...it wun work..

anyway.i've been moody these dayz..
realli not in the mood..
A LOT of bad things happen in the wrong time n consecutively
things juz come down n come down hard on me..
until i cant even lift myself up..
n wad realli fall on me REAL HARD
is wen idah told me sumthing ...
u all dun need to noe....
but i was realli heartbroken n dissapointed
i wanted to cry but i stay strong n continue toking to her on the phone..
eventhough i was laughing,smiling n toking happily...
but deep down inside..i was crying....angry n all the bad feelings i cud even tot of..
it was also my mistake...i expected her to love me back..
but she didnt promise me anything...
can u b mine?can u?
i dunnoe how long i can wait..
i juz realise,im one of the guyz hu is waiting for her..
ONE of the guyz...wad chances do i have??
u gotta b kidding..i juz an average guy n she is a beautiful princess..
hu am i kidding??
wadever it is..we're still contacting with each other
but didmt noe how heartbroken i am now..
but wad can i do..its her choice,not mine....
i realise how imperfect i am n i dun have wad u wanted..
i hav done a lot for u..i've change after i met u..but i noe im not the onli guy u manage to change..
n they r waiting for u n far more good loooking..
but wad happen to the things u said..
wad happen to the words love u..
wad happen to tat...
do u realli mean it..
or do u juz wan to play with my heart....
u noe wad??its ok..
i dun wan to noe
i realli dun wan to...

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im totally not in the mood rite now..
i noe its been a long time i haven been updating
its bcoz i've been bz searching for a job
but i didnt get one stupid DAMN JOB!!!
EVENTHOUGH I APPLIED ALOT!@!!!!
den u noe wad??
my mum began blatering this lah tat lah!!
come on lah mum!!!cant u support me anything i do??!!!
every single DAMN thing u dissagree
even finding a job??!!!
u tink i cant handle two jobs in one day??!!!
come on lah mum...one is in the middle of the night n another is on the afternoon...
y the hell u need me for at the house??
do chores???!!!
n y u alwayz scold me wen i tok back to sis..
she is the one u shud be scolding@!!!
tat fucker sis tinks she big enough....n tinks she can do anything she likes..well den she's wrong...
she's not gonna step on my head even though tat rude...i dun care
i dun respect for u now sis..i wish u were dead
u r not a use to me at all
u have ruining my lyfe since u were born..
u ruin everyone's lyfe sis...
i hope u get an accident or sumthing bad happen to u so tat u will learn wad u did wrong fucker..
i dunnoe hu u are sis...u'r not my sis...
u'r a bitch..a fucker n a self-minded person...
u noe wen i say sorry on hari raye...
i lied...i noe im not sorry in wad i've done to u n i wun forgive u n wad u've done fucker...
fuck u sis...fuck u...

yeay!!!!!!!!!
da abes o lvl!!!
IM FREE!!!
hahahahaha...
i can update my blog again..
haiz...i missed my blog seh
no REALLY...
haiz...
hmm...wad did i do???
well...raye was ok lah..
meet up with my cuzzies
but it doesnt make a diff
we're not as close as b4
i dunnoe y but nvm..
i dun care wad they think of me..
i wan to live my own live..
but tat is cuzziez sebelah my father
my sedare2 sebelah my mum is as crazy as b4
hahaha...realli
nvm lah..
during raye i also kluar jln2 dgn kwn..
hahaha..sempat seh..
yar...aniwae,me,fadzil,fadhli n faris go to rumah fadzil 1st
den we go aqilah open house...
fadzil n fadhli da malu2 seh...
hahaha...mmg dorg org permalu..
aniwae,after tat we go arinah house,around 10 30 i tink
after tat we go to rahayu house..tats where i noe rahayu also plays guitar
from there i got to noe rahayu more..
ckp dgn dier blh mati seh...
byk kite berbual...hahaha...n we also irritate each other
hahaha...she even irritate fadhli until fadhli wants to KILL rahayu
hahahaha....funnye sia...
haiz...wad a sweet couple...hahahaha...
i went out with rahayu a lot of times..like go out raye..
n carik keje n not to forget..going to farhana house..
anyway,i got a new lenses..contact lenses
hahaha...ppl said i look like a chinese...
which i do...hahaha
nvm lah...
haiz...a lot of things happened...
well...i gtg now...bye!!!