MyLyFe....

2009-04-01T15:55:00.004+08:00

its not easy to be good all the time..

there are certain time, people will start doubting u

people will start thinking bad abt u..

and still u noe tat u are not a bad person..

yet in different situation,people will think differently about u

den u started to blame urself of wad had happened

u started regreting the things u have done and wish all those time to go back..

yet..its useless..u felt very bad tat u disappoint alot of people..

too many has been disappointed..

the pressure is intensed..and u start to doubt urself..

things hav been rough for me these dayz..

i dunnoe how to handle it..

i noe i have dissapoint others..

i noe i let down too many people..

i noe i my mistake..but i didnt hav a choice..

i hadnt been myself lately..i always rushing here and there..

always prioritising the wrong thing

always making the wrong choices..

i noe..coz im taking the pressure of the consequences

and im not liking it..realli hate it..

and still i need to make a choice..
i have to sacrifice somethings..

it mayb rough for me..but i hav to live with it..

i gotta stay strong..

im sori my frenz for hurting u..

i noe it doesnt make a difference..

but i was force to make a dicision..

i didnt mean to hurt u or to trouble u..

my hands are tight..i juz dunnoe wad to do anymore..

how i wish someone wud guide me thru tis lyfe..

how to handle such probz..how i wish..

2009-03-29T21:34:00.003+08:00

all it takes to change my whole lyfe...

it's juz a simple request...

simple enough...but hard to find

having juz one person...

one sweet gerl....

2009-03-28T11:57:00.002+08:00

hye guyz!
sori for not updating my blog for such a long tyme..

i've not being myself lately..
i dunnoe wats the reason
but it seems like..i feel tat i dun wan to write on this blog
for now..

it brings me alot of memories..
for those hu reads my blog often...
im reali2 sori for not updating..

its not tat i dun like to update..
i cudnt..

i'll be back updating more wen i have the tyme..
even if i hav the tyme ..i gotta hav the mood..

i'll linked u guyz later alrite?

bye

2009-02-14T21:44:00.004+08:00

dun ask me if i gone out today or not
coz i didnt..

yeap..
a special day for teenagers like me...
the day where we share love,sparks love and some even make love..

but for me..
i didnt have plans..
in the afternoon i got tuition until 2pm
den nuthing..was tinking to accompany kak yaya but since she wan to sleep the whole day..
i dun tink i wud wan to go her house..

so i went home..thinking tat somebody is at home..
but there was no one..
so i went online..but still,not many is online..
the usual frenz i chat went out..to celebrate valentine's
even most of cousins..ella,bibah,midah..zul...haiyo.
switched out?im not surprise they all bz...azzrul go out with sharina...afiq dgn mataer baru dier..farhan dgn pmpn istimewa...rauf tk tahu pulak..

haiyo...
suddenly..i felt like im alone in this world...
but i wun juz back down juz like tat..
i noe i've been writing post tat is emotional..
depressed..but i dun wan tat to ruin my lyfe
i have my lyfe to live
i have things i have to do while i can..
i wan to make my lyfe the best i want..
and i noe..she, whoever she is...will come into my lyfe one day..
i wun hope she'll come soon..coz she will come..

mayb i've been someone new..
or shud i say it..somebody hu is not me..
somebody hu try the bad things..and become somebody bad..
i noe i've been tat guy kind of guy..
but i still believe,there is still good in me..
the reason i do those stuff its bcoz i was confused
i was confused with my own feelings
my ownself..i was confused after all those shotdowns in the past

i tried my best to bring it aside..
i try to life my life the way i want..

2009-02-05T23:30:00.002+08:00

a story abt a sweet guy in a bitter life...

life can be realli wonderful
but at the same time it cud be realli painful and hurting..

it all started with a simple crush
and it has grown as big as u can imagine..
if a sincere guy likes a gerl..
he goes all out with her..
never been he has been in tat state of mind of seriousness with a relationship..
and he wud be hoping every single day that the gerl would be his..

but as mention..life can be so painful and hurting..
his love wasnt accepted..
after more 3 months he waited and tried his very best..yet he still cant hav the gerl he dreamed of..
so he did wad he tinks is best..he left her and move on in life..

after a year..things hadn't been better..he never had any gerl the same as her...
memories of the gerl sometimes visited hym in his lonely nights

a couple of months later..he got to noe tat she was with another guy...
wad make it worst,he saw her with his own eyes..
he quickly turn his back..trying to avoid her to see him..
after all these years of trying to forget her..
y did fate brings them together and trying to hurt hym again by see his own eyes..

"why u came back to my life girl..after all this while i was trying to get off u on my mind..after all those lonely nights missing u..and now i see u with another person..holding hands..y am i running away from u..y i dun wan to see u..after all those lonely nights..i've been missing u..wishing u to come back..and now u did but with another person..mayb tats y i cant face u now...the truth tat i've running away from has come back to me smacking be on the back..realising wad is life..making me realise..im realli not for u...making me..gave up the feelings tat i had tat was once beautiful and decent...perhaps tat's the truth..perhaps..."

hey ppl!!
this is a story i've made up
let me noe wad u tink alrite!
bye!

2009-01-22T22:41:00.004+08:00

hey guyz..
yea..i noe its not me to update blog all the time..
but i juz cant take it anymore
i need to let go the things that i have been keeping..

the whole day i was moody
yes i was,i noe the few posts i've posted that i was moody
well tat's the reason for this blog..
to let it go..sad or happy...good or bad..
well, as u noe bad things hav been happening happened

Last night, i was shocked..dissapointed and angry at the same time..
y?y all this things happened?
i never thought tat u were like that..
the truth was painful and unfair..
why u?why u had to do that?u dun deserve this..yet this things happened..

its too late to do anything now..i cant help it..
i cud onli advice..yet i feel tat is not enuf
but i cant go further..
n i realli hate the feeling of being helpless..i cant do anything to help u.
i hope u made the right decision..wadever it is..we'll be there to support u..

2009-01-21T00:06:00.003+08:00

heyhey
i noe its late for me to post and update tis blog..
felt like it..

today was a tiring day..got maths the whole day..
still for 2 more tutorials to do..wait mayb 3..
haha

anw,today av math learn abt complex numbers
whoa!the complex numbers are realli2 complex sial
haha
no wonder they call it complex numbers
y they didnt call themselves complicated numbers or irritating number or annoying numbers tat is hard to find the ans of the qns(wow!tats a long word for a topic)
hahaha..

anw..got home late today..
was out with frens..

dilla was moody the whole day..
she didnt replied my msg for a long time..
i felt realli guilty wen i slept early last nite bcoz of certain reasons..
haiz..wish cud be there..
today she wasnt herself..i juz noe it..
dilla if u read tis..
u noe i'll be here wenever u need me..
tats wad bestfrenz do..they help each other..
im doing my best to do wad i can..
but i cant..

2009-01-13T12:52:00.002+08:00

ida:da update kau kate?
dilla:when are u going to update mr??

"oi update lah blog kau"
update lah!!
asek bende same ajer..

HAIYO..EVERYBODY WAN ME TO UPDATE....
HAIYA!!SORT SAK..

haha..ni lah masalah lelaki..
kalau buat bende,ader ajer..
mls pn ader..haha..

yelah2 korg..aku update kay?
hahaha..

kay aku da update..
haha..

sori for the Beri Beri late update on my blog..
been bz and beed..erm..lazy??
haha
yea..alot of stuff happening ever since skool reopens..
anw,i hav a cca now..and i was tinking to joing another one..
hhaha..yea,ntah eh..i finally got sumthing to do at skool after studying at classes and practical at workshops..
hehe..
kay lah..
i gtg now..got some other things to do..
see ya next time..but i cant conferm i'll update tmr..
hehe..
mayb i'll see u in a months time??
haha..no lah..juz kidding..will update as soon as i can alrite?
haha..
kay...

signing off..
-RusH-it-
p.s. i got a new nick name by my frenz..they call me acit..hahhaha

2008-12-21T23:59:00.003+08:00

Life..

simple yet complicated..

yet again..life has shown two diff things..

yes or no
good or bad
right or wrong

two options..juz two options yet still ppl cant figured out which one to choose..
it's bcoz of the diff situation we all involve in and the way we are brought up
depends on the decision we make..tat makes us the type of person hu we realli are..

obstacles never fail to show up..even in the slightest reasons..
some ppl might go thru it,but some ppl don't..
why ppl don't?bcoz afraid..fear...get them in their way
get them from wad they realli want in lyfe..
and most of all...the weak determinations instill in them..

do you want to live ur life to the fullest? or do u wan a life u'll get nowhere.?
do you want to hav the life that you realli want? or u wan to live ur life tat u dun wan?
do you have a dream..tat is beyond your imagination,that u cant even think of, and you wan to achieve?or do u wan it to be a dream and not do anything?

dreams...can be true,can be achived,can be reached...
only if...
u believe...

your path to success might be bumby at 1st..
but trust me...it will get better...

besides,wat is success without failure
in order to succeed,u hav to fail...
like it or not..it goes the same to everything you do..if u realise it

2008-12-09T20:22:00.003+08:00

heyhey ppl!!
updating blog in processing..
hehe..

1st day for the common test..
was late..haha yeap and advance math was the 1st paper..
woah.suay lorh..
can die sia..

but still,i can ans alot of qns
well...i can ans most of the qns..
haha..

next paper..eg2,engineering 2..
eventhough it is on the afternoon,
im still late..hahaa..
go toilet ar..with afiq,but pangsai partner...hahahaha

anw,the day was abit sort ar..
after the common test.
afiq wanted to study..
i didnt study at all!!
haha..coz i was too tired lah..
lagipn.common tests need alot of thinking tau..
so yar cant put inside my brain anymore,,,

but tats wasnt the one hu make my day lousy
after awhile,we met azzrul..
he wasnt himself juz nw...
he wasnt cheerful,he wasnt happy-go-lucky guy i noe all this while..
he was totally diff.and totally sad..
well,wen bad times happens,sumtimes its better to left alone..

mayb he don't want to tok abt it..so i dun wan to ask hym today..
mayb tmr or next tyme i see hym..

till this day..i still remember u and felt ur presence..
i wan to hold u yet i can't..
but i have to face the truth..
i'm not the one for u...

2008-12-06T00:45:00.002+08:00

woohoo!!!
baek ar..
at last i update my blog

hehe..
sori ppl,been bz with lyfe ryte nw
eversince i got this new job..

i've ask fadzil n fadhli to join with me..
but sadly they withdrawn..
but wadever it is..
i would never give up until i live my life as what i've always wanted..

anw,common test is comming up,
so tat has added to more things and stress to myself
tat means i got a lot of things to do and to handle in my life..

love lyfe..

i've thinking for awhile..
i dun wan to tink abt any gerls nw..
eventhough i feel lonely

to her..
i noe u missed sumbody..
and i noe its not me..its sumbody else..
i hope u'll be happy with ur crush..
eventhough all this time,i dad always wish tat it cud be me
as the man that u can depend on
the man tat make u happy
and the man who u wud spend the rest of ur life..
but in actual fact..its not me...

ryte now, love and gerls arent so impt in my life
i got other things to worry abt...
eventhough it is so hard to forget and to move on

2008-11-09T21:23:00.002+08:00

As the day grew closer...
i grew more and more nervous..

i always tink of how shud i say it
how can i see her
i got skool...
can i meet her after skool?
will she wait for me?
will she meet me juz for a few min..??

will she..?

wadever it is...
i hav to tell her as soon as possible
if i dun,i'll keep delaying
and at last..i wun get wad i wanted
and the waiting is all a waste..

adakah kau merase kan..
perasaan yg tersimpan di dlm hati ni..
dptkah ku memilikimu..

2008-10-24T01:34:00.002+08:00

hyehyehye ppl!!

sori for being MIA
haha.
been bz these dayz

dunnoe wad to say..
im sori if my blog is boring for u ppl
i dun blame u
i dun update my blog always
tats y its so boring..

but anw,
lyfe is still the same..
skool reopens,n things get going
n iits going to be tougher den last semester..

anw,i got a psp already..
not wad i expected,but its ok lah
$180,my bro sold it
yet i feel unsatisfied
haiz..
wad to do..

anw,if there's one thing tat u wan to noe abt me
in my love lyfe rite now..
its tat..
im confessing to someone..
not now,later..
i noe its not the best time
yet u cant delay for sumthing like love
but i hav to be patient
if this love is true,den it will work out
but i wun forget this feelings inside of me
for the 1st time in my lyfe..
i wan to confess,face 2 face..with the gerl i had crush with
but yet..its easier said than done..
to even go out with her,n make her day enjoyable,
its not an easy task..
yet,i choose this path,coz i wan to be with her..

but wadever it is..
if i fail....it natural
but if i suceed, it would make me a better man..
if i dun do this..
i will regret...
its not good to leave regrets in ur past lives..
so never regret

ask...den u'll be given..
search..den u'll find
knock...den u'll open the doors of the heart tat u wan to enter..

cinta tidak akan dijumpe
jika tidak di cari
cinta tidak akan didapat
jika tidak diberi

till the day,i will wait for u..
to tell u the feelings inside of me
tat i never had the chance to say
pls..give me a chance,,,

2008-10-04T13:03:00.003+08:00

tanpa ku sedari..
syawal sudah menjelma..
ramadhan sudah berlalu..

sedih dan pilu terasa meninggalnya
tetapi ku tetap bersyukur dgn apa yg ada

bulan syawal..
bulan mulia..
saudara2 dan kwn2 kunjung mengunjung
bertanya khabar..
dan bermintak maaf
begitu meriahnya hari raya

kepada sudara maraku
ku susun sepuluh jari
utk bermintak maaf
jika ada salah silap
ampunkn lah dosa2 ku
apa yg lalu,kita lupakn
dan mula yg baru..

kedapa kwn2 ku..
ku susun jari2 ku,
utk bermintak ampun dan maaf
maafkn dosa2 ku jika rasa tersingung

tetapi..
apa gunnya kau bermintak maaf jika
kau mengulangi silap kau yg lalu..
tk usah lah kau mintak maaf dgn aku..

2008-09-24T01:13:00.002+08:00

arrggh!!

im freakking bored sia!!
the whole day i got nuthing..
nothing...

N-O-T-H-I-N-G

n dun let me repeat tat alrite..
haiz..
usually im like bz with tuition everynite
so i spend the rest of my time sleeping to save up
my energy for the night..

but now..got no reason to sleep
got no reason to save energy..
n plus got nothing to do..
see lah i repeat the word again...

hahaha..
mayb u't wondering y im soo hyperactive tonite..
is bcoz i spent the rest of my day at home
hahaha..

yeap...

so tats it i guess..
hmm nothing special abt today..
yeap..

kay..
bye

2008-09-17T23:22:00.004+08:00

halohalo ppl
sori for being MIA

im abit bz these dayz
with ncc n tuition all day.
well i didnt have time to update my blog

well lets see..
tmr got tuition at 5pm to 7pm
den before tat i didnt go anywhere..
hmm..

i dunnoe..nothing is happening in my live rite now
hmm..

love lyfe?
hmm..let me tink..
nope, dun hav any ryte nw
lazy ar..with all those things happening all around me
i tink is best to leave it to fate...

i miss u..
i realli do but wad can i do..
u wun come back..
even if i wait at the mosque..
i still wun see u..
i guess we were meant to be seperated

2008-08-30T22:57:00.003+08:00

hyehye ppl!

im back!
realli bored at home with nothing to do
accompany a bro to bkt panjang..
didnt take long actualli..n we juz walk around like ppl with no direction to go

haha
met with some of my frenz

friday was awesome!
haha..
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!!
haha..although the performances was abit...DULL..
haha..but the performance by mike n safuan was great..
haha..
haiz..i miss mrs teo n her teaching..
not forgeting mr cheok who trained me to get A1 for my maths..
haha..

hmm..back to today..
i saw some movies..funny movies..romantic movies
n one particular movie..funny but realli sad n touching

p.s. i love you
a story abt a young widow discovers that her late husband has left her 10 messages intended to help ease her pain and start a new life...

i wonder y i watch it today..
y in particular,i watch it today..
at first i didnt noe..
but i found out, tat august was month tat i fell in love with her..
maybe today is the last day of august,tats y i accidently watch it
to say gdbye to august 2008

yes, i haven get over it...
it been like wad?a year?
haiz..
if onli u were here..
if onli i could see u again without u realising..
if onli u noe..how terrible i am without u..

sori for the emo post..
i promise a happy one once the feeling's over..

if onli..

2008-08-23T19:45:00.003+08:00

23 August 2008

this day marks one of my worst days i ever remember..

all the plans i planned carefully has been destroyed

juz bcoz it is raining..

damn it...

where do i start?ok lets start with this morning around 4am
i woke up around 430am to go work..

well,going werk is no prob..
going back from werk is a prob...

i was suppose to go to HQ at 9am for an event held there
so i have to change my cloths at my uncle house..

otw there....BOOM!
it rain..rapidly,it changes from drizzle to HEAVY RAIN!!!

i was so fed up man..
i was drenched with my onli jeans i brought from home,.
damn...how am i suppose to get to HQ totally soaked?
k so tat time i was so stress tinking abt the solution..
anw.it gets even worse...

rite b4 my dad was abt to reach amk ave 1,
the motorcycle suddenly sound different..
it come to a stops..and MAN!there's realli alot of speeding vehicles in the rain..
i thought i was abt to die tat time at the side of the road..

well,one thing for sure..my dad's motorcycle cant go on any longer..so we parked the bike aside
n tink abt how r we gonna go home
we hav to walk all the was from the expressway to the bus stop
i called my uncle,n thank god he can give us a ride...
haiz...starting of the day already like this...
bad day man..

at the bustop..i called neil,
telling him tat im not able to come for the event..
i wan to noe y but im not able to giv hym a reason..
so i say sumthing came up here coz it rain realli heavily

haiz..one event spoilt

k next up..
another event tat i looked forward tat day
the day me n my frens see the fireworks
at first, Guna ask me out to accompany hym
but i rejected coz i hav plans later..
so afiq now ask me to wait for hym at around 3pm
expected ppl to come : 5ppl
ppl came : 2 ppl(me and afiq)

yea..suay..reali2 suay..
zul n azzrul werking..
rauf?haiz..last min cancel..
so left me n afiq..
F up man..
both of us were realli fedup

so we ended up walking at lot 1..
F rite?
bloody hell..
den no choice,we go home..

another event spoilt

den i tot of going to azul's performance
but he told me tat i need to buy the tickets
$7..
so i cant go...coz no cash with me
haizz...
another event spoilt

today was realli Fcked up man..
alot of things cock up
now i hav another event..

to go to kenduri or not?
im scared of making the wrong choice again...
so where?

wad a day...

2008-08-20T20:51:00.001+08:00

why do boys fall in love with girls?
This was written by a guy :)

1. They will always smell good even if it's just shampoo.
2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder.
3. How cute they look when they sleep.
4. The ease in which they fit into our arms.
5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world.
6. How cute they are when they eat.
7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while.
8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside.
9. The way they look good no matter what they wear.
10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful girl on this earth.
11. How cute they are when they argue.
12. The way her hand always finds yours.
13. The way they smile.
14. The way you feel when you see their name on the your cell after you just had a big fight.
15. The way she says "lets not fightanymore" - even though you know that an hour later....
16. The way that they kiss after you have had a fight.
17. The way they kiss you when yousay "I love you".
18. Actually...Just the way they kissyou...
19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry.
20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly.
21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt. * i think every girl is guilty of this :)
22. Then the way they apologize whenit does hurt (even though we don't admit it).
23. The way they say "I miss you".
24. The way you miss them.
25. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore...

Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them it matters not. Because once in your life,whatever they were to the world they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart.We love them for a million reasons, no paper would do it justice. It is athing not of the mind but of the heart.

A feeling.

Only felt

2008-08-19T12:50:00.003+08:00

YEAY!!!
FINISHED EXAMZ!!!

WOOHOO!!!

haha...
ITS TIME FOR HOLIDAYZ BABY!!

finally,i can hav break...
whew,its time for some part time work
money is reducing day by day..
haiz..
wad to do
k lah enuf toking abt money

lets tok abt yestday
last day of skool

woohoo!rite after our exams
me,afiq,azzrul n rauf wen to vivo!!
hav some fun n slack around
haha

wanna see some picz?
here..

2008-08-07T17:42:00.002+08:00

heyhey!!
im in sp rite now
playing pool with the other faradians!
hhaha..

da lame tk dgn dorg
fadzil pn tgh tgk2 ni aku tgh type..
sane lah...

haha..

anw,sp is big sey..
realli big.mcm masok dlm maze besar..
tapi tempat besar tapi toilet kecik..
haha..

k lah..after playing pool im going to public concert..
tats the reason y im here in the first place..

anw,sorry ppl for the outdated post..
i've been bz these dayz..
assignments...projects..n alot of stuffs

btw,i've gone to my very 1st camp!!
haha...
campfeast..being a logistic..
its quite ok lah
but it feels good wen ppl call u sir..

haha..k lah..
going off now..

see ya ppl!!
i'll be back with more pics!!

2008-07-20T22:12:00.009+08:00

happy bdae AZZRUL!!HAHA...

19 july..

azzrul bdae, we supprise hym at sentosa!haha..
we reallli did surprise hym
at first he tot tat we as band members forgot his bdae
but den he realli had a big shocked
haha..

2008-07-17T00:22:00.002+08:00

hey ppl!!

sori abt the late the update..
i've been bz nowadayz with skool
n i dunnoe wad to write here...

haiz..
mood today?
hmm..

i dunnoe..its been realli2 tough for me
im confused with my own feelings
n i dun seems to make the rite choices these dayz

haiz..
hmm..mayb its bcoz of some probz im having nowadayz

1st thing 1st...
power band...27july!!
ARRGHH...i need to have extreme makeover!
i look ugly sia..n i wan to perform.

2nd thing...
i need to clear up my probation
after 23july..
n i realli need to do it fast
damn...

3rd thing...
hmm..i got loads of assigments to do!!
gotta be organise!
everything is in a mess!!

well..mayb tats y i've been stressing myself
i need to organise myself n plan ahead of me

n last but not least...
im having probs with money..
good news is i've been awarded $500
the bad news is,it will take a month or 2..
but i need it!!
urgh!for my bill..for my makeover...for my daily lives expenses!!
man..

well..tats most of my probs
gerls?
i dunnoe..its better not to find one now
i dun care abt it for nw..
haiz..

gtg now.
bye guyz!

2008-06-28T13:56:00.002+08:00

hey guyz..
im at the skool libry rite now with afiq
teaching hym engineering mechanics
must teach hym slowly..
releks2 afiq..jgn stress2 ok?

haha..
ckp pasal stress..
aku lagi stress

haiz...sumtimes i always ask why tis happen to me
my toe is dislocated n it is realli cause alot of probz

haix..1st ncc
i cant come coz i cant walk
until i can walk den i can come to training
but the prob is i still hav this wire in my foot
i cant wear my boot
haiz..shit man
i've been missing out alot lately in ncc
ppl hav been going for trainfire n IMT
n camps n HQ
n im still stuck at home
cant go anywhere
haiz..most of the 55th can already clear their probation..
n i still haven go for one
i've been missing ALOT of the activities
God!so stress out rite nw..
how i can put my face wen i meet the 55th later in the future
all of them promoted already
n im still haven yet..
haix...
tats y i've been worry all tis while..
tats y i 've ask myself y all this happen
why why why..
if i had stayed home tat nite,
none of this wud happen...
i wun be missing out in activities
i wun be missing out in skool
i wun be missing fadilla
i wun be limping rite now..
if onli i stayed home tat nite..

haix..i wanna noe why does this happen
i wan to noe..wad is the reasons of all this
i felt like im realli2 weak n small as compared to other ppl
i juz wish tat things wud be normal again..

i missed u dilla..
i realli do..
i wanna go out with u again
we hang out like we always do..

God,tell me why does this happen to me
wad is ur reason of doing this..

i noe i cant qns God like tat..
but i juz wan to noe..

2008-06-22T16:16:00.002+08:00

......
lalala...
hahaha..

as u can see..
im bored at home
haha...yeap...
realli...im realli2 bored to death

cant do anything much wen u cant get around easily
haix...
missing dilla rite now..
wonder how is she now..
long time never go out with her..
oo i wish my toe can heal now

haix....
tmr school reopens!!
" yeay! "
-__-"
hahaha..
i wan more holidays!!
haix...haix
haix...haix

tkpe lah..
2 weeks pn enuf lah
haix...haix..
hahahaha...

k lah..
tats all folks..
not much..

ohh yar..switched out gonna join power band 2008!!
yeay!!tk sabar nk perform lagu letting go!
haha.
k lah
gtg now..must rest..
tmr got skooling
bye!!

2008-06-18T16:56:00.002+08:00

hey guyz!
sori for the late update man..
n yes ms manager..
im updating my blog
hahaha..
anw,the reason y i never update is..
well..there's a lot of reasons

1st and main reason is..
i dislocated my toe..
haha..
yar..
its bcoz i hang out with my frenz all
n i ran n ran n..
haha..n yar i trip n fall
n yar..haha

dun worry everybody!
im alrite!
im the usual me!
the diff is my toe..
haha..yar
the rest is the same
hehe..
gtg.
i hav some things to do
bye!

2008-06-12T13:07:00.005+08:00

hyehye..

sori for the late update
no time to blog..

anw,i got new photos tat i wan to upload here..

hope u like it..

2008-06-03T17:31:00.003+08:00

heyhey!!
juz droping by to upload sum picturez!
hahaha..
yar..kinda bored here at the libry
coz nuthing to do sia
im with afiq n hidayah
haiz..
kecoh siol

anw,enjoy the picZ!

Thanks Ida for the sweet edit with my pic!

2008-05-27T17:18:00.002+08:00

heyhey pplz!!

rasyid here on the house!!
haha..
sori abt the late update in my blog

to those hu often check my blog for any updates..
i thank you..
but if nobody do...
den nvm lah..i shiok sendiri saje

hahaha..

im at skool libry now..
doing my slide for my camp this thur!!
AHH!!
MUST FINISH FAST!!!
I HAVEN RECCE SIAL!!

okk lek2
chill2...
must releks....tmr morning can recce..
hahaha..y am i not doing now instead im blogging

coz im feeling soo jealous
haha..yar
a new fren of mine, azzrul
he made a special gift for his gerl
im nt going to tell u wad it is but it is very special n very touching..
i fell like crying sial
haha..yar realli...

but den...
i remember her
the day i met her at the libry..
studying as frens..
and we move on
like making a paper heart n writing our names on
like drawing each other names n put it at frenster
like taking pics together n kolling at nite

yea those were the dayz i was with u
but now im at the present
u left..n i suffered
but i hav to face
now im here..
praying to god
listening to one of her favorite songs
thinking abt one of her favorite words
i realise how stupid i was
how silly i am
n how evil i hav become..

i try my best to change without u..
but its hard
im faced down on the dirt
face down..

2008-05-20T00:12:00.003+08:00

hey guyz!
sori for the late update my blog here

today's mood??
i don't know...its been like very strange for me

things hav been very weird lately,
n i hav no idea why im feeling this way..
hmm,maybe its juz me..
i dunnoe...

mayb its bcoz of my bad flu n my bad cough i guess
n tat leads me having a headache..arrghh
hahaha..
releks,im ok i guess

but there's sumthing else..
i dunnoe..
sumthing inside of me..
sumthings tat i realli missing..
sumthing i realli want in my life..
maybe its her..
but i cant say tat...
she has chosen her path
n i hav chosen mine..

i dunnoe,mayb im juz rushing to relationship
trying to find an answer
n a reason to live...a better reason..
life is full of surprises...well i hope so..
i juz hope it won surprise me in a bad sense....if u noe wad i mean
nvm..
im juz not myself today..
even wen i was at eric's place..i wanted to make a new song
but i cant
i dunnoe why
n i ended up going home with nuthing
well i do hav the chords n melody of the new song
but i cant get the theme rite...
i dunnoe wad to write it for...
ooh well.wad to do..
i tink i juz not in mood today..
sori haziq!at least we jammed together...

k lah..nytez!

2008-05-08T23:48:00.005+08:00

heyhey!!
its 11 49pm n im still not asleep yet
yea i noe..its kinda late to blog
but i slept on the afternoon
usually i wudnt so coz i always hav some things to do i skool
but today i finished class at 12pm
so i hav lunch with fadzil at long john at lot 1
n den we went to the library to surf the net
and then we go home

anw,i got some new picz to show
enjoy!

i dunnoe y im feeling this way
i still cant forget u..
i dunnoe y every gerl i try to even like
i ended up hurt inside..
i juz wan to b happy like the rest
i want to love sumbody
but i cant..
i juz cant..

help me god..
i pray to u..
the one who bring saiidah to me
n make me happy once
i want to hav a happy life
once more..
plz god..

bad day bad day!!

2008-05-04T19:14:00.004+08:00

haiyoo!!!
today's realli a badbadbad day for me!!
serious man..

haiz...dunnoe wad to start
ok how abt tis..
i was late for werk today..
yes im werking today..
giving out flyers..
haha...tot i quit?
no way...tis is ez money man...
how can i let it go like tat

anw,i was late..n today i hav to meet mid at 5pm!!
shoot!i hav to finish giving flyers around 4 30pm n go meet mid to giv thumbdrive.
anw,i tried my very best to finish it
but i dunnoe y there r sooo many foreigner
how the heck i can find young teenagers at town?
haiz...mayb bcoz of exams lah
anw,i cant finish the whole stack...most of the ppl r all adult n foreigners
haiz...then i was late meeting mid
she was like...tkpe,its ok,
but i noe deep down inside
bdk ni lmbt sak...buang mase aku je..
mid im sooo sooo soo sorii ok??

haiz...n den i tot i can juz go home but i forgot
i left my bicycle at bkt panjang!
AAHH shit man..
i must go back there n cycle back home..
sway man...

den wen i got back home..
hp batt pulak low...
shoot lah..n the charger is missing!!!
stupid lah!!!

haiz...sian...
seriously no mood man...

bad day bad day!!

2008-05-04T19:14:00.000+08:00

2008-05-01T22:57:00.001+08:00

AARRGHH
bored at home man
everybody's out!
im alone
doing nuting
no food
no money!!

wad the hell
terpakse aku beli bende pakai duit
while at the store,
i pick up some sweets for me to chew

anw,juz ate rice...n egg n kicap..
yar noe,not so much food i can eat

wad the hell?
i cant check my email seh at skool?
wonder wad happened with the system..
haiz...

she was online
i was toking to her for awhile..
i asked her out
but she cant.too bz she said
well,wad to do
i've waited so long but we ended up being frens after all

sometimes i feel like giving up
yes i do but i had no choice but to live with it..
i hav decided..i cant hav a gerl..
no more pain inside..no more

2008-04-30T22:39:00.003+08:00

heyhheyy!
im bored at home!!
penat sey baleq skolah kul 8pm

hahaha...i was at skool lah,
doing some quiz
class end at 5pm,n after tat i hav to teach John abt the Engineering Mechanics
haiz,b4 tat also stress sia at ECPRO class
the best thing is we build our own car!!
yeay!!(with the materials of coz!we cant possibly make out own motor rite?!)

haha..
we r given motor,the body of the car
two types of wheels;big n small
some tools n 3 gear box with diff no. of gears inside the box
i juz got to noe tat the more the gears inside the gear box,the more torque the car will hav
dun understand?nvm
juz treat the car as the human body n the torque is the muscle the human hav
so the more the human train,the more muscle he gain n he become stronger
same as the torque..the higher the torque,the more weight the car can carry...

if u still dun understand,den nvm
hahaha... juz forget abt it
sume aku type sume buang tenage n mase
hahhahahaha

anw,i got the things rite, n we were the last one to finish
hahaha..coz we wan it to b precise..

after the class we go to libry till 8pm
i finish my quiz n after tat i watch Superhero movie..
hahaha..funnye sia!!!
so stupid n funny show...
anw,i took pics there...
haha..still got time to take pic..
coz too boring already n i dun wan to go home
coz i always hear my mother nagging
juz like now...she's nagging again
n blame me coz my father lost his hp(but now lucky sumone gave it back..whew!)
she say i rush hym...
but i didnt!!
i was like normal wad??
wad onli!!
anw,abt those pic...yar i got it dun worry..
here it is!

SMILE!!!

RASYID!SO SERIOUS AR??!

BEHIND THE LAPTOP..(REALLI)

MY LAPTOP

NGANTOK BANG?

2008-04-27T09:40:00.003+08:00

hey!!
updating my blog here!!

damn its been a long time i never update man...
hahaha
sori abt tat coz i've been packed with a lot of thingz

wanna noe??

ok 1st...
POLY LIFE
-ALOT of assignment to do sia!!!
AAHH!!PROJECT haVEN FINIsH!!

hahaha...ok tats the 1st..

2nd
NCC LIFE
-probz with the camp we're clts organise in twss
woah!!UG camp also got!!damn..two camps u noe to oganize!
well,wad to do?its a job of a cadet officer..

3rd
WORK LIFE
-i got a new job....yeay!!
but...i hope it dun clash with my studies..
1st day je kena marah....y?dtg lmbt
hahahaha

well...tat abt it i guess
as u can see,im gonna be a bit packed with poly,ncc n work
so if i didnt update my blog for more than 3 dayz
tat means im soo packed,tat im soo lazy to update
hahaha...
i try my best to update everyday
ok?
i try to make it nicer...
put pics
put this
put that..
haiya....i try lah ok?

in the meantime...i hav to link someone 1st
ok?
gtg.....

byez!

2008-04-18T09:39:00.003+08:00

heyhey guyz!!
sori i didnt update my blog for a long time
its been awhile tat i hav the opportunity to be free
hahaha...

ok let's get started
im now oficially a Cadet Officer!!
yeay!!!
hahaha..
juz onli promoted n now i got a job to do..
haha...
organise a part B RO
haiz...tkpe,its ok
its a job of a Cadet Officer..

ok Next!
i got a laptop already!!
yeay!!!
hahaha..its a fujistu laptop
so after tat im going to install things at skool
im currently at skool now
my class start on 10am
so im chilling now..
hehe...
haiz....
Poly life...
shiok lah
but still very stressful
project here,project there..
not onli np,but ncc sumore..
well,i hav to be independent...

k lah,i need to go now..
see ya!!

2008-03-26T01:43:00.003+08:00

CDT course...
sway...
really tired...

it started on monday
i was scared tat my name wudn't be on the list
but....lucky got.

y im up tis late?
i cant sleep
juz now go SDC
nice the place
but a bit cold
12 hours in there
wahh...tkle tahan dok

den kena scold by OIC in the bus
"OI!Fish market ar?"
of coz lah not fish market lah
but y cant we hav fun in the outing?
i mean,camp is still camp
we still hav to maintain our decipline
but if u expect us to shut up n be quiet in the buz
how r u suppose to bond??
hav fun lah at least
dun b too serious all the time
yes we r attending the course
but at the same time.
we shud enjoy ourself at SDC or on the bus
its not everyday u got to go SDC with u syndicate mate
n with the same bus as them

nvm lah...
im sick of it already..
cannot blamed hym also
he hav to do his job
n we hav to do mine...
wad to do..
lyfe is alwayz unfair..

2008-03-18T19:01:00.002+08:00

having to tink abt u all the time
is a suffer for me
having to said tat i am no longer yours
is a pain for me
having to see u leave juz like tat
is a disaster for me

tears n memories of the past
hauted me now and then
eventhough i said i moved on
i never did forgot u
the things we did together
the things tat u gave to me

but sadly,u left
deeply hurt,
i intend to accused u
tried to blame u
but i didnt realise
tat u r not the one hu hurt me

i hurt myself
u didnt do anything
i noe sooner or later u have to leave
yet i didnt understand
n continued hurting u with my words
im sorry..
i truely am...

seeing everybody happy with their partners
is a painful
but i had to face it
eventhough i lost confidencen in myself
but i had to face the world

im sori guyz
if im being too emotional
its juz tat im not being myself these few dayz
i cant seem to let it go

2008-03-05T22:11:00.003+08:00

have u ever had the feeling of writting
sumthing but don't know what to write?

Have u ever feel like saying something
but you don't know wad to say...

Have u ever feel like u'r missing sumthing
but u dunnoe wad u'r missing?

tats how i feel rite now...

i dunnoe y im feeling tat way
perhaps mayb i cant help it

qns start to keep appearing my head
mum's voice always heard in my ears
n my lyfe have become unreasonable
n im becoming useless n restless

i dunnoe watz wrong with me..
stupid me..

2008-02-25T14:31:00.002+08:00

heyho...
blog updated!!
sori if its been quite awhile i never update my blog
haiz...
im realli realli bored man!
hahaha..
no serious

no werk=no money=bored at home

hahahaha

kk.i got to make tis quick
my mother is scolding me
haha..
btw,i got into ngee ann poly!!!
woohoo!!
hhahaha..
poly life...here i come
hahaha..
anw,my life is so damn slack
nothing to do at home
everyday play runescape
hahaha..
yar i noe...lame rite?
but best siak the game..hahaha
but waste of time lah...
anw,i got to get back to werk..
bye!!!

2008-01-29T14:33:00.000+08:00

^^BLOG UPDATED^^
haha..
yup im updating my blog..
why so long??
hmm..
im currently werking now till 10pm
so i always lazy to update
anw,i went to kelly services today
gave my time sheet n i walk off
fadzil going to buy a new hp
i was planning to buy the same too
but it turned out tat the phone has no bluetooth
so..tk jadi lah
hahaha..
im having my off today
so i got nuthing to do n go around at town
go to metro at paragon n saw FARIS
haha...
tkde keje...jln2 je
anw,i was planning to apply for student plan for singtel
its very attractive u noe...
i wan to have a new hp!
hahahaha

haizx..day by day has passed
its seems tat time flies faster den i tot
im abt to finish the song for her
but the words still seems doesnt sounds rite..
i juz have to finish tat damn song n move on in lyfe
mayb tats y i cant finish tat song
coz i cant seem to move on
haiz...forget it

puteriku..
kian lama kau pergi
namun wajahmu selalu dekat di hati
wajahmu tk mampu ku sentuh
kau cuma puteri impian dlm khayalan
tk mampuku memiliki

2008-01-03T13:20:00.000+08:00

HAPPI NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!
a new year,a new day...
a new begining...

mood:okok lah
status:tired
skool:im not skooling animore lah idiot

haha,anywae
on new year's day
i find trouble with a taxi driver..
yar,stupid rite??
i dunnoe wad got into me
so i was hoping to go to lock up
i guess..
everybody think's its ridiculos
even tink so...
going to lock up juz bcoz u point middle figer to a taxi driver??
i dun tink so
but somehow i wanted to go to lock up
i dunnoe y
onli god noes
mayb i dun find a meaning in life anymore
mayb so...

anywae,its the start of skool
not me,but others hu got to get their ass at skool
haahahaha...nahnahnah
hahahaha...
my god,im soo evil
i even shout outside my house
"rasyid tkya skolah lah!!"
n laugh myself to sleep
hahaha...

anw,yesterdae i watch AVP 2
alien vs predator 2
i can onli desrcibe it with one word n 6 letters
B-O-R-I-N-G
hahahaha...
serious,there is no excitment in the movie
the onli thing i like is the gadget the predator use
tats all..n the movie was full of fcuk words...
wad a stupid movie
n at last everybody died bcoz the human bomb the town
y the hell u'r showing the damn fight between the alien n the predator wen u'r gonna bomb them?
i cant even see them fighting...haiz..
waste my $8 n my bloody time..
but on tat particular time onli lah
the other time,wen i was spending time with my frenz its worth it
its been a long time we never seen each other n talk..
guess it was worth it but the part where we watch the movie...not worth it

anw,im working late today
4pm to 10 pm
yar i noe,but at least i got to rest today with longer sleep
i almost finished my song yesterday
juz need a lil touch up n the song will b perfect
mayb everybody will cry after hearing tat song
juz waiting for the tat day..
her bdae...n i will give her the song
as a bdae present
n a mark of saying goodbye\

i didnt yet get over her
but i hope i will
juz cant for now
juz cant...

2007-12-20T11:07:00.000+08:00

hheyehey
blog updated!!
haiz...
hahahax...
its the onli time i got for update my blog...
hahahaha,realli tired n hav no time to even go to the comp
haiz...tired per...
on the dec 22,i had to werk from 12pm to 8pm..
haiz...8 hours of work n boringgg of the same song the fairprice is playing!!
hahaha...
xmas is comming!!!but still i request for work on the day
coz im not celebrating,tats y i wan to work on tat day
hahaha...anw,i told fatin abt my feelings...
too fast??
i dunnoe..i tink its ok wad?
i do need to find a replacement
but i dunnoe
she do make happy
fatin if u'r reading tis...
thx for being here with me...
but there's a prob im facing..
i cant love u now yet
yes,i may like u...
but i cant love u yet...
i dun wan to rush into things after i lost sumthing big
i hope u giv me time...
to noe u more

after she left,
i dun feel rite...
after she left with her last msg..
i stay quiet....
i didnt reply,i didnt ask y she hav to leave...
i didnt do anything
juz to cry inside....
the things i have to do,i didnt n left it
u kept interfering in my mind sumtimes...
my mood swings
now u'r gone....
i dunnoe wad to do...
i've waited for u n i did changed for the better
i've done wad u've asked,not to do the things tat u dun like..
n i was there wen u'r angry with ur mum or with ur fren...
n i helped u get rid of that irritating person tat have been irritating u
....n after tat,all u go to say is thx..
dont u tink its not enough...dun do i deserve like 'i love u'
don't i?
no...im still nuthing to u...
after all we've gone through,we left me juz like tat...
juz like tat...
without even turing back...
u didnt even missed me wen we didnt meet for 3 months
wen i tink abt u all the time in tat 3 months....
u dun even love me anymore
u juz didnt care abt me n all the things i've done for u
but its no use complaining
n saying all the wrong things u've done...
coz of ur ego....
tat can fit the whole world inside....
its over now...
the next time we meet,
we'll be total stranger...
forget abt the things happen to us
forget abt the 1st time we met
forget abt the feelings we had
forget abt the things we talked
forget abt me n u
forget everything...
im nuthing to u,so y do i even care to tell u to forget me
im sure u've already did...

2007-12-14T02:49:00.000+08:00

BLOG UPDATED!!

hahaha..

soo long never update sial..

nvm i took tis special time to update my blog so tat u all can now wad is happening

MON 10 of Dec...

my 1st day to work...

oouh yar i got a job already(YEAYY!!)

at ntuc fairprice..

im not going to tell where i work coz u'r going to go there n see me work rite??

haha..

anw,its ok tiring at 1st lah..

i had to force myself to wake up at 10am

wen i was sleeping after i came work for the newspaper at around 7am

so i got around 3hrs of sleep

so...i wore my dad's shoes..

the leather shoes (which i tot was comfortable at first but i ended up having cramps)hahaha

anw,i search the whole house for a white polo t-shirt way in advance n black pants..

so i tat day i was ready to go...

go to ntuc damn early sia...

at around 11am wen im suppose to reach there at around 11 45am

hahaha...i start at 12pm till 5pm

so the first 2 hrs was fine...

the stupid thing i hate is to hear the aunty tok...

i dun even noe watz she's toking!!

i dun understand!!

anw,i have to take care of the detergent n non-food sector..

i have to carry the boxes from outside n carry it to a troll

n bring it to the store n fill up the empty stock..

the store is huge btw n im onli work at one quarter of it...

den i finish off work n got home tired...

but i still got to go haziq house to give his brother tuition..

yes i noe...

tiring rite??3work in one day...

but can lah...

den got home n sleep...

11dec Tue

went to work again

n im not tat early to go to the ntuc...

juz in time...

blh sempat beli kasut lagi ader

hahaha...

anw,i met a new fren, aishah n ahmad...

aishah is so the frenly n ahmad is too by veri the shy2 type..

anw,working with them is sooo the best...

i got a fren!!yea!!

hahaha...

den got back home n change n go to haziq house n got back home again and finally sleep
hahahaha

12Dec Wed...

MY BDAE!!!!

yea!!!i got to work like usual

but b4 tat i receive many kols n msgs man!!!

but the stupid one is from izan hu uses another num to disguise hymself as a gerl n he msg me...

haha..bastard sia..

btw,i realli didnt expect everyone to rmbr my bdae..

i was like shock sia...

hahaha....realli

den my testi was like full of bdae msges

whoo!!hahaha....

after work,i went out with my family n go pizza hut!!!

hahaha..n fatin im sori i didnt msg u!!sososo the sori...

anw,i was great...its been a long time i didnt go to pizza hut..

13 dec thur..

its still the same thing...

but tis time i couldnt sleep..

i dunnoe y...

till now...14 dec Friday

haiz.....

now comes the sad part of my life..

8 dec...

she msg me...

she's leaving me...

she cant accept my love...

n gave me the last msg

i was totally shock...i didnt expect it to happen in the end

i've waited her for 5 mth...n the last time i saw her is on october

b4 puase...n now she's gone...

i dunnoe y...i kept silent..

i dun reply her back bcoz i noe she's not gonna reply me back..

even if i ask her y,she will not reply

so she juz dissapear juz like tat...

juz like tat...

2007-11-30T17:42:00.000+08:00

heyhey...
guess wad im doing now?
yes ur rite...nothing...
n o t h i n g...
haiz...
BORRING!!!
u noe today i went to msn n found out tat no one
NO ONE from my class in online!!!
ARRGHH
how frustrating izit!!
everybody have sumthing to do..
either they hyav a job or they'r going for a holiday..
n me??!!!
ahiz...alone with the damn comp infront of me..
i looked at the monitor n the monitor look at me..
wat to do...
no job...
no kol for job..
no nothing!!!
nothing!!!!
my hair also got dandruff already...
stress!!!!
help me god!!help me!!
i need a JOB!!!
IM BROKE N EVERYBODY GOT SUMTHING TO DO !!!
ARRGHH!!!

2007-11-26T00:34:00.000+08:00

not in the mood..
i noe..its ridiculos but yea
n i tot after o lvl i can b happy
but i juz cant
nuthings been lucky for me
im jobless n useless..
everything i do is not rite...
my parents getting more n more angry at me
n my sis hav become more n more pathetic..
im begining to hate her more..
dun try to counsel me bcoz of my sis..
belive me..dun...it wun work..

anyway.i've been moody these dayz..
realli not in the mood..
A LOT of bad things happen in the wrong time n consecutively
things juz come down n come down hard on me..
until i cant even lift myself up..
n wad realli fall on me REAL HARD
is wen idah told me sumthing ...
u all dun need to noe....
but i was realli heartbroken n dissapointed
i wanted to cry but i stay strong n continue toking to her on the phone..
eventhough i was laughing,smiling n toking happily...
but deep down inside..i was crying....angry n all the bad feelings i cud even tot of..
it was also my mistake...i expected her to love me back..
but she didnt promise me anything...
can u b mine?can u?
i dunnoe how long i can wait..
i juz realise,im one of the guyz hu is waiting for her..
ONE of the guyz...wad chances do i have??
u gotta b kidding..i juz an average guy n she is a beautiful princess..
hu am i kidding??
wadever it is..we're still contacting with each other
but didmt noe how heartbroken i am now..
but wad can i do..its her choice,not mine....
i realise how imperfect i am n i dun have wad u wanted..
i hav done a lot for u..i've change after i met u..but i noe im not the onli guy u manage to change..
n they r waiting for u n far more good loooking..
but wad happen to the things u said..
wad happen to the words love u..
wad happen to tat...
do u realli mean it..
or do u juz wan to play with my heart....
u noe wad??its ok..
i dun wan to noe
i realli dun wan to...

2007-11-22T19:11:00.000+08:00

.............
.........................
im totally not in the mood rite now..
i noe its been a long time i haven been updating
its bcoz i've been bz searching for a job
but i didnt get one stupid DAMN JOB!!!
EVENTHOUGH I APPLIED ALOT!@!!!!
den u noe wad??
my mum began blatering this lah tat lah!!
come on lah mum!!!cant u support me anything i do??!!!
every single DAMN thing u dissagree
even finding a job??!!!
u tink i cant handle two jobs in one day??!!!
come on lah mum...one is in the middle of the night n another is on the afternoon...
y the hell u need me for at the house??
do chores???!!!
n y u alwayz scold me wen i tok back to sis..
she is the one u shud be scolding@!!!
tat fucker sis tinks she big enough....n tinks she can do anything she likes..well den she's wrong...
she's not gonna step on my head even though tat rude...i dun care
i dun respect for u now sis..i wish u were dead
u r not a use to me at all
u have ruining my lyfe since u were born..
u ruin everyone's lyfe sis...
i hope u get an accident or sumthing bad happen to u so tat u will learn wad u did wrong fucker..
i dunnoe hu u are sis...u'r not my sis...
u'r a bitch..a fucker n a self-minded person...
u noe wen i say sorry on hari raye...
i lied...i noe im not sorry in wad i've done to u n i wun forgive u n wad u've done fucker...
fuck u sis...fuck u...

o lvl finished!!

2007-11-13T12:06:00.000+08:00

yeay!!!!!!!!!
da abes o lvl!!!
IM FREE!!!
hahahahaha...
i can update my blog again..
haiz...i missed my blog seh
no REALLY...
haiz...
hmm...wad did i do???
well...raye was ok lah..
meet up with my cuzzies
but it doesnt make a diff
we're not as close as b4
i dunnoe y but nvm..
i dun care wad they think of me..
i wan to live my own live..
but tat is cuzziez sebelah my father
my sedare2 sebelah my mum is as crazy as b4
hahaha...realli
nvm lah..
during raye i also kluar jln2 dgn kwn..
hahaha..sempat seh..
yar...aniwae,me,fadzil,fadhli n faris go to rumah fadzil 1st
den we go aqilah open house...
fadzil n fadhli da malu2 seh...
hahaha...mmg dorg org permalu..
aniwae,after tat we go arinah house,around 10 30 i tink
after tat we go to rahayu house..tats where i noe rahayu also plays guitar
from there i got to noe rahayu more..
ckp dgn dier blh mati seh...
byk kite berbual...hahaha...n we also irritate each other
hahaha...she even irritate fadhli until fadhli wants to KILL rahayu
hahahaha....funnye sia...
haiz...wad a sweet couple...hahahaha...
i went out with rahayu a lot of times..like go out raye..
n carik keje n not to forget..going to farhana house..
anyway,i got a new lenses..contact lenses
hahaha...ppl said i look like a chinese...
which i do...hahaha
nvm lah...
haiz...a lot of things happened...
well...i gtg now...bye!!!

2007-09-28T22:19:00.000+08:00

ATTENSION EVERYBODY!!
ATENSION!!!
I WILL NOT BE UPDATING MY BLOG
UNTIL MY O LVL HAVE FINISHED
I HAVE A NEARLY NO TIME TO VISIT MY BLOG
SO IF THE POST ARE OUTDATED,SORI ABT IT
IM BZ STUYING...REALLI STUDYING
I HAVE 15 DAYS LEFT...NOT ENOUGH TIME..
SO SORI ABT THE OUTDATED BLOG.
WISH ME LUCK FOR THE EXAMS!!
BYE!!!!

2007-09-24T21:58:00.000+08:00

2007-09-23T01:59:00.000+08:00

ooh yar i forgot..

im sori i never post tis yesterdae..

so damn tired after i got back..

yes was lantern festival??i tink

wadever it is..i never pay attention abt the performance

i juz pay close attention on the Belinda,one of the MCs

aniwae,she've made a great job

den i took a lot of pics sia.

pic after pic..

mcm org popular gitu eh??

hahahaha!!prasan...

tkle lah...ape salahnye?

kwn kan??

im not a flirt ok??plz...

aniwae,here r the pics yesterdae...

enjoy!!!

2007-09-23T00:45:00.000+08:00

heyhey guyz!!
juz came back from my antie house..
fadzil sori aku tk dtg terawih tadi!!
haha..
todae i was packed like h**l
haiyo,early morning need to go work
after tat, 9 am i got some seminar for study & motivation skills at Kembangan
its was ok i guess but i try to stay focus n awake...
den i got chocolates after the seminar!!
haha...best..
aniwae,after solat zuhur i went straight home..
tired like h**l!!
aniwae,i got home at around 2pm n i got to go for home tutoring at khairil's place at around 3
so i called him to conferm with him lah..
skali dier tkle..alah hai...
its ok but the worse part is i have to go to my antie house to go for buke...
haiyo!!penatnye!!kene patah baleq kat Tampines
haizz tkpe lah...
at least Angah blh antar..
tapi dier bawak motor.
Ya Allah...i kept praying hard everytime he hits coners
coner baring btol2 blh pengang the surface of the road
but Alhamdulilah i got to my destination lah..
safe n sound...
n now im back home...
haizz...n im worried abt dilla n ida...
dun ask why...

2007-09-16T17:11:00.000+08:00

heyhey guyz!!
im at the cybercafe with eric n ida
i actually dun wan to go but
aku nk temankn ida..
so ida pay for me..
i was like soooo the embress now..
haha..da rezeki,tkle ditolakkn??

hahaha..
but den wen i was using the comp..
ida was beside me n i saw her crying..
yes i noe y but im not gonna tell
poor gerl..
haiz...
be strong gerl..
there's nothing u can do anymore
u dun have to live ur life like tis
change it n move on
i noe its difficult,its always difficult
but make a effort to forget
he might be gone..
but im here..ur frenz r here to support u all the way
has he support of wad u have done?
has he have given the love tat u deserve?
has he give u opportunity to speak n noe wad u feel?
if no,he is not the one for u..
let him go..
u dun deserve hym..u deserve sumone better
he dun care abt u so y shud u care abt him?
i noe u'r disappointed..but let it be..
u cant change hym anymore
he's a stubborn bastard..
live ur life as it is..
im here beside u always...
dun let a guy ruin ur lyfe
to let hym be a hindrance to u to get wad u wan in life..
tis is juz another obstacle u faced..
i noe u dun easily fall in love..
juz let it go pass u my fren..
im very worried abt u now..
is no use waiting for hym or even thinking aba him..
he wun come back to u..
if he did...do u tink he loves u or he loves wad u can give to him??
n u'll onli be another object to him..
he's not worth it ida..
let it go...
i noe its hard..but its better try than to juz cry..
u'r a great gerl ida..
u dun deserve tis...
its better without him..

2007-09-13T19:50:00.000+08:00

heyheyhey!!
baru abes buke...
kenyang seh...
Along masak segetti!!
haha....SEDAP!!!
THANKKIEW ABG ALONG!!
hahaha...
aniwae,
juz now was A-math n combined science
it was ok i guess..
den after the paper mr cheok ask us to write commitment we've done for our cca this year..
haiya.... wad to write sia...
hmm..

NDP....cert of Excellence..

wad else??.....i tink tats it..
aniwae,i need to find money for my prom nite.
i wan to go prom coz its the last nyte i wud be spending for my years in teck whye....not bcoz of farhana....plz laa guyz

hmmm.....oh yes,today is ida n zaini bdae!!!
hahaha
HAPPIE BDAE GUYZ!!!
hahaha..

i tried to upgrade my bike...
i try fixing it with a suspension i front but the stupid break cant be removed
haizz..susah2 je aku kluarkn bende2 dier
tapi tkle...
hmmm...nvm...its still great eventhough i didnt get it fixed
i like fixing n remove things from the bike n fixed them back
haizz...i realli wan to be a mechanic..

wah..so late sia??better get so sleep..tmr is working day..
haha

bye guyz!!!
gud nytez!!!!

puase

2007-09-12T22:13:00.000+08:00

heyheyhey...

juz came back from terawih

haiz..i gone with fadzil

i didnt see faris but i see alot of familiar faces

aniwae,i msg putri(not faris ex)

i said sorry...i had to...aku nk tebus dose2 aku...

aniwae...BESOK PUASE!!!

YEAH!!!

SLAMAT BERPUASE SUME~~!!

HAHAH....

i've been looking forward to this for a long time

i wan to challenge myself not to follow my emotions n my nafsu

faris if u'r reading tis,u better watch out if u do anything in front of me

dun tink im playing of nk act

i realli wan to changed

aku tk motek

aku da tk pikir bkn2

did u realise tat?

hari mase kat hall pon aku buat sekadar ketawe n bergelak

but i dun like it wen u do sumthing haram wen im fasting

plz...i wan to changed myself

u shud too

if u dun wan, den respect ppl hu wants to change

puase tahun nie menjadi cerah untuk aku

aku bersyukur aku merasakn demikian

aku juga bersyukur yg aku ditemukn dgn Saiiedah

dier adelah sebabku berubah

aku telah nmpk jalan yg lurus
aku tidak boleh membayangkn dia meniggalkn ku..

pasti aku baleq ke perangai burukku

tk smbyg,tk puase

tk bace Al-quran

i cant imagine...

but i will happen...if she leave me..

2007-09-09T14:39:00.000+08:00

hey...
i got to do this stupid game
thx lah hidayah...

Rules of the game:
Each players of this game starts off ten weird things or habit or little known facts about themselves.People who get tagged must write in their blog of their own ten weird things or habit or little known facts as well as stated this rule clearly.At the end of it,you must choose six people and list out their names.And no tagging me back...

1.i intend to tok to myself wen i dead bored
2.i got the habit of hitting my head wen i do mistakes
3.i intend to sing to myself wen nobody is around wen actually there is...haha
4.it a fact tat im not cute nor hansem..i am juz a normal guy
5.i intend to praise others more than myself ...biase lah,tk nk action kan?
6.i actually hate math but i love it...hahaha.weird huh??
7.im actually very emo guy as my frenz already noe from my pics
8.i intend to sing out of tune wenver i sing at the bathroom
9.i dance stupidly wenever i hear hiphop songs...haha...weird
10.i intend not to do sumthing even though i wan to do it..nvm if u dun understand..im a weird guy...haha

you're tagged;
-Fadzil
-Faris
-Raihanah
-Suriani
-Amalina
-Elydia

bluek! xp

2007-09-04T22:32:00.000+08:00

hey guyz!!!
juz came back home
i went with zaini juz now
to accompany him
he was the onli one guy so i pity him lah
fren wad..so must help lorxx
aniwae,it was quite...ok lah...
i met new frenz n they nice to me lah
they remind me of saiidah..
haizz..

aniwae,yesterdae was a great day man!!!
after our math n poa lessons
we went to catch a movie!!
a ghost movie!!!
room 1408...
dun go in the room 1408
its not tat scarry lah
but it sound soo the shocking sia1!!
i spend most of my time covering my eyes with my jacket
zaini spend most of his time covering his ear
&&kwee meng...
spend most of his time--sleeping
realli!!serious..
stupid sia...we were like scared to death he is there sleeping
hahaha
den after the show we all like paranoid abt the room 1408
hahaha..
stupid rite??but yar its true..
den after the movie we took pics

me stepping cute to the max!!!
hahaha!!!can't stop laugh after i took the pic
hahahaha!!!
next time i better watch my limits
hahaha!!!omg!!!its tat me??

here's are some pics we took before n after the movie

aniwae,it was a great day..

im sorri i never update yesterday

i was too paranoid to reach to my labtop

hahaha...

to scared

haha..but now ok lah...

haizz..

its been a long day...

i gotta go...

see ya!!!

2007-08-31T19:53:00.000+08:00

hey guyz!!!

sori i never update my blog

hahaha....bz studying.

prelims start already noe!!

sori raihanah!!!

haha..

juz now was teacher's day celebration

i performed juz now with haziq

we were...nervous to the max!!!

haha...

bfore the my big show

i took pics..

hahaha

sempat sak

den after the my performance

it was a great relief man!!!

hahahaha!!!

i can hear eric mistake n he heard mine

haha

but overall it was a great show

haha

glad tat everybody loves the song we've made

so...tats it den..

prelims here

so i wud not blog for these few dayz

bz studying...

haha...saiidah pon tk sempat kol

stakat msg her onli..

haizz...

missed her lah...

aniwae,better get back to my studies

haha

bye!!!

2007-08-20T18:19:00.000+08:00

hey guyz!!
i juz recorded the song me n eric compose
it sound ok lah...
but i tinks its not good enough...
aniwae,i asked around...
n THANK GOD
everyone love it!!

2007-08-19T11:21:00.000+08:00

hey guyz...

i juz woke up man!!

yesterdae the whole day i was doing revision on chemistry

today i tink i wan to continue from where i left off

aniwae,during friday i had English o lvl oral!!!

dun ask me wad happen

but i feel good after the whole oral thing!!!

hahaha...serious

i felt like i left with sumthingwith me noeing tat i did great

ok if u dun understand wad im sayind nvm..

coz im realli happi wen i left tat room

hahaha...

ok dun tok abt friday

lets tok abt yesterdae

yesterdae i gone to ang mo kio library with...."ehem"

paham2 je lah

last time i tot she was taller than me

coz i didn't wore my glasses that day

but...

i realise tat she wasthe same height as me...

onli my shoulder r lower

haha...ok..

so we study at the same place

den there r a group of chinese boyz n gerlz

discussing abt chenmistry so loudly sia!!

i cant do my revision!!!a**h01e$

im not trying to be racist here

but tis is a library for goodness sake!!!

can u keep quite

where else can u find a peaceful place??

aniwae...i managed to do revision

n we took pictures coz we're kinda bored

dn she made me a heart

n drew her name n my name..

haiz...

saiidah i love u too!!

haiz...she one of a kind....

all tis while i've been looking for the perfect gerl...

i've found her...

my prayers had been answered

remember wen i said

love..a complicated thing in lyfe

yet ppl around r happy with the person they love...

dyg is happy with fadhli..

guna hu was a playboy has settled down with sornah n they remained happy...

ida finally have the guy she loves n be happy..

dilla is always happy with ari,from the start till now..

ira...maybe she's happy with some other guy..

nadhirah is happy with her new bf after she left me...

the person i used to love is happy with sumone else...

wad did i do to deserve loneliness..

why cant i have a gerl perfect to my eyes n love me??

why..

why cant i be happy??

tis is lyfe...

complicated like a tangled ropes..

maybe,i juz need time to untangle the ropes ...

maybe its not time yet...

maybe it will never be..."

i was jeolous coz they r happy with their lives now

n i said i deserve a have a gerl hu loves me

n live happi...

guess Allah answered my prayers n she came by...

Allhamdulillah...

aku bersyukur kepadaMu Ya Allah..

aku berharap Kau janganlah pisahkan kami Ya Allah

Amin...

2007-08-11T22:44:00.000+08:00

heyhey...
juz finished doing hw..

alot sia...i haven finished it noe...

still got many more hw to do!!!

hahaha..

tkpe...at least syg online mlm nie

hahaha..nk tahu sape syg ku??

nk???

ni dier..

haha...

im lucky to have her...

she's the gerl im looking for

it's been a long time i've looking for a gerl like her..

i tot i wud never find her but at last i found her....
she's the gerl i wa to spend my lyfe with...

maybe u might tink im kidding but she's the gerl....

if i hurt her...i will never forgive myself...

y i choose her??

haha..i dunnoe..mayb she's diff

she's the reason i changed...

she's the person tat had showed me the correct path....

tell me guyz,

if sumone had changed ur lyfe,

wudnt u wan to treasure her n make her happy

of coz u do..

aniwae,here's sum picc we took to at ang mo kio libary

2007-08-08T16:30:00.000+08:00

hey!!
im glad to announce tat the parade has ended
YEAH!!!!!
i've my done my best n i show the skool tat its the best..
haiz...lucky onli a small mistake..
hahaha..
but i still remember all the commands...
yes!!
hahahaha...everybody was great juz now..
den after the parade i took the the cert of excellence at stage..
haha...den i didn't realise tat St. John was cheering for me wen i go up to the stage..
hahah...i dunnoe why the cheer but it was a great feeling man!!
hahaha...

haiz...time juz passed by...
n things r pased by soo fast
after the concert,the ncc cadets was gathered at the hut
i cant believe tat it wud be the last time i wud be seeing them..
all the moment we've been through
all the thing i taught them..
it was a sad thing i have to go..
but i will be back..having a CLT rank.,,i promise u tat

aniwae after the whole speech of leaving them
i go lot 1 with fazil,eric,fadhli,faris n kwee ming
at 1st we go to long john sliver but it was full house man!!
den i saw cat,elly n the otherz..
ape lagi...peace2 lah...
hahaha...
den i saw suriani n alif n the rest of their gang
hahaha...den alif said"rasyid.suare hilang ke??"
hahaha..i was like -___-"
hahahaa...
den beside them was titi n farah..the two sistaz
my two adekz...
aniwae,titi asking me abt sumthing..
its abt..
mane blh bilang..bende ni confidential..
haha..den since its full we go up to food culture...
sane siket seh org
den i saw iza sorg2
hahaha but actually she's with some other guyz..ex twss..
den we saw ari n dilla..they too tgh mkn kat sane...
den we have to wait for 20 min coz the food is bot ready..
so we waited...n waited....with our tummy grumbling...
hahahaha...den faris go back without eating coz he got sumthing on..
den mins after tat iu saw the queue was starting so i go inside too
so we eat,den fadzil was telling me a gerl was lookign at me..
no wonder lah..it was rani..hahaha
i was like never say hi to her wen i saw her so i kept quiet..
den wen i was queing up..i saw farhana!!!
omg...naseb baek dier tk masok..hahaha..
aku pengsan aku nmpk dier...hahaha
she's soo cute!!
ok back to the eating part..so we eat n i was the last one the finish coz i was bz toking abt the parade n suthing serious happend yesterdae..nk tahu??
mane blh bilang...confidential..
hahaha...asek2 confidential..
no its juz i cant spread tis around lah..
its not good..
aniwae.kwee ming left early coz he's going out later...
den i saw rani going home,so i called her
n i said bye to her..
hahaha..
den after tat we go home...
at the interchange,i saw sharizan n lyn..
wen they're going to the bus i say "bye sha!!bye lyn!!"
den fazil..said "shalyn"
hahaha
ohh yar ar..never tot of tat..
so we went home n i juz go to my bed n boom!!
i went to sleep...
hahaha
until 4pm...hahaha
da lah..i tink tats it lah..
alot of things tat happened tis morning..
u can see tat..
haha..
ok guyz..
bye~~!!!!

2007-08-04T23:06:00.000+08:00

heyhey...
i juz came back from eric's place,composing song
damn man!!
its soo hard to complete a simple yet perfect song
hahaha...but we managed to complete the verse n the chorus
haizz...so hard man..to compose a song u have to create a certain jargon
damn!!

nvm...at least i got $12 today!!!
yea!!i got a job todae...
lorrrein called me yesterday wen i was rehersing for the parade..
haha..im rehersing n she called me...
aniwae,i got $12!!
hahaha...but the worse thing is,i have to work at lot1!!
ahh!!malu aku!!
but nvm,i continue my job...n saw many fimiliar faces
i saw zai n his gerl,
lydia...erm...sape lagi eh...
ntah lah
mls aku nk ckp but i count the person i saw
i say..ermm....13 fimiliar faces...haha can u belive it??
at orchard,i at least 1 fimiliar face
hahaha
den i got home at around 6 den i reached eric's home around 8 den u noe wats next..
haiz...im soo bored man..
got no mood to do hw...
bye!!

2007-07-28T19:58:00.000+08:00

hye guyz...
juz came back home...
i went out with me frenz juz now,ana,iffah,dyg n her boi,fadhli
haha...we go celebrate dyg bdae so dyg invited me
i met dyg n ana at the braddel mac at around 1
at first i was like very quiet sia...hahah
den wen i got to noe fadhli,i wasnt lonely no more...
he was quite frenly n easy to tok to...
haha den all the way i was lyke kamceng with him...
except wen he was with dyg..ok tats a diff story..
1st we went to far east den waited another fren of theirs..
waited n waited until she finnally came with her chinese fren
den u go eat at far east plaza..
dyg,ana n iffah dun wan to eat..haha...diet dikatekn..hahahaha
after tat jln2 lah ke marina bay...another thing,they never plan for everything so they hantam je kluar jln2 mane2 je...hahaha apa dah
aniwae,i was great...but it wasnt anymore wen they went marina square...
memories started to come back to my mind..
n worse still,wen i saw dyg n fadhli together,it reminded me of nadhirah...
the place reminded me of ira..the place we gone b4...
tat place...
den i cant help it,i have to get out of there or else i ended up crying..
im sori dyg of leavin early,its not ur fault...i juz cant control my feelings..
i juz cant get over the gerl i loved even though it has been months...
i juz cant forget the gerl hu betrayed me n the gerl hu dun loved me anymore..
love..a complicated thing in lyfe
yet ppl around r happy with the person they love...
dyg is happy with fadhli..
guna hu was a playboy has settled down with sornah n they remained happy...
ida finally have the guy she loves n be happy..
dilla is always happy with ari,from the start till now..
ira...maybe she's happy with some other guy..
nadhirah is happy with her new bf after dumping me...
the person i used to love is happy with sumone else...
wad did i do to deserve loneliness..
why cant i have a gerl perfect to my eyes n love me??
why..
why cant i be happy??
tis is lyfe...complicated like a tangled ropes..
maybe,i juz need time to untangle the ropes ...
maybe its not time yet...
maybe it will never be...

2007-07-26T22:22:00.000+08:00

hyee...
juz watch the new show at suria "putri"
hahaha..cute seh!!!ooh i wish she was mine!!!
hahaha..
den suddenly sumthing happen so the suddenly
haiz..i cant believe tat bitch suddenly was on my mind....
haiz....den i tok to hanker
tis wad she said

most probably hanker,
cause you love her and she the first
love that seems hard for you to let it go

most probably so hanker....
i dunnoe....suddenly her face came to my mind
den after tat babi chat with me
eh babi!!plz lah..
dun play gal's heart can not?
i noe i oso like tat but i at least i stop coz i feel guilty abt it
u stead with a gerl,den u still contacting with ur ex
n u still hav the guts to flirt another gerl
u'r a real bastard....
wad kind of guy r u??
den u tink u tat hansem izit??u tat cute izit??
eh even zaini also more better than u lah!!
jgn prasan lah babi kau hansem!!
dun let me ruin ur lyfe
coz i will if i have to
rey can take care of tat...

2007-07-21T11:53:00.000+08:00

hyee....

its been a very looonnggg time i never update my blog seh...

i've been moody these few days...

nvm..dun tok abt it...

aniwae,yesterdae was public concert...

before the concert,i met up with fadzil,fadhli,faris,zai n his gerl n some or her frenz

aniwae,b4 the concert,we took pics

check tis out...

stupid fadhli...

Although the show was boringg..i managed to enjoyed it,
hahaha....i sat beside khairil.behind me was fadzil,faris,fadhli n haziq
syafiq was behind them,being a loner...hahaha,kecian dier
den during the concert i saw farhana...

alamak!!!lawa lah dier!!

n she was juz two rows in front of me...

OMG..she's sooo cute....

den after the concert i took pictures with her..

but i found out from irah tat farhana was actually angry with me..

ape seh!!amek gmbar pon salah....
laen kali kalau tk nk amek gmbr tk ya nk ckp yes lah...
alamak...pastu nk marah kat aku...bingit seh

den after taking pic with her

i went outside n saw kartini...

hahaha...cat,u r soo cute too!!!hahaha
den took pic with her...

pastu ader org ckp...

"alah mcm pinang dibelah due ar"

hahaha...ape je....tell me if tis is true...

hahaha...its not true rite....

nvm...

den tats it man...

den me,fadzil,faris,fadhli,khairil n haziq go to marina square n go long john

den we met nas amin n his gerl

den zai n his gerl sum other gerl...

bitches...baru sec 1 nk step depan aku

dorg buat lagi bingit...

its a good thing tat rey never take over fully

rey juz took over n shouted at them...

once rey took over...there's nothing stoping..

he dun care whether a gerl or boy...

once i got angry,rey will hurt the person tat hurt me

tats wad i hav to avoid...

bcoz of him,a lot of ppl r hurt..

im trying to blaming it to ppl

but if u realli noe me..

im not the kinda a person hu likes hurting ppl

n i wun even try to hurt ppl...

2007-07-14T02:45:00.000+08:00

hey....
i noe its 2:45 in the morning..
but i juz cant sleep...
i dunnoe why...but things had been realli hard for me
i noe its sounds ridiculos but i realli cannot accept the things tat is happening...
memories still stuck in my head
i can't get it out
i've not been myself these few dayz
i used to be so alive but now im dead
wad did i do to deserve tis punishment..
why am i punished..
why i have to be so lonely
questions remained unsolve
n everything happens with a reason....
this is not wad i want...
i deserve sumthing good in my lyfe..
i deserve love from sumbody
but everytime i love
i'll get hurt n they will leave me..
its always lyke this...
i promise myself not to love again

2007-07-12T20:56:00.000+08:00

hye guyz...
im not in a mood to blog..
but i juz wan to share sumthing with u guyz out there...

nadhirah was mad at me juz now...
bcoz i scolded nadiah,her fren
i cant belive tat she cried...
i dun wan to be lyke tis
i even dunnoe wad im doin...
mayb Rey took over me
n i dun even noe wad im doin...
dun abt rey now...
the prob is i hurt sumbody
i never meant to hurt anybody
i juz onli wan to noe the truth
tats all....

to nadiah...im very sorri tat i scolded u..
n im sori tat i've made u cried
i didnt wan to hurt u
but there's sumthing tat made me angry

to nadhirah,
im sori i scolded ur fren
it wasn't meant to be...
but let me ask u this...
wad happen wen sumbody u love left u with no reason?
wad happen wen u noe tat sumbody dun love u animore??
wun u wan to noe the truth??
wun u be angry??
WUD U??
of u do...bcoz u dont noe wad u gone wrong
now ask urself!!
izit realli my fault tat ur fren cried???
its part of ur fault...
u might dunnoe it..
now i tell u..
i admit my mistake..
but u too made a mistake...
i scolded ur fren..fine.i noe....
n im sori for tat...
im realli dori abt tat...
i didnt meant to do tat...
but tink im evil..
bcoz u cause me to be evil..
i maybe bad
but im bad bcoz wad u did to me.....

2007-07-10T20:49:00.001+08:00

hye....i still got no mood tonite..
i dunnoe y..
im still tinking of her n i still love her
but wad can i do....
today was ok...i tink..
i tried to be happy n pretend nuthing had happen last nite
and i was succesful
but deep down inside,i still feel hurt...
for those hu noe abt my situation,keep it to urself

to nadhirah,
i noe im not perfect for u
i shudnt say the awful stuff at you tat dae
for tat im realli sori
n i shall forgive u
i noe u cant love me
n i dun blame u for tat
mayb its not meant to be..
mayb we were meant to be juz friends
i hate to be enemy with u
so lets be friends for now,lets start a new
mayb titi is laughing at me now
mayb she saying serve me right
mayb i do deserve it...
i shudnt make the decision to love u at 1st

well...i hope u find sumone to love u better..
till than...
see u around...

2007-07-09T14:19:00.000+08:00

hyee guyz...
im sori i realli not im the mood to post rite...
n i wun be until im in the mood
y??
mayb bcoz of sumone hu says she wun leave me here alone but she did...
haizz..nvm
gtg...

byee

2007-07-05T00:26:00.000+08:00

why do boys fall in love with girls?

This was written by a guy :)
1. They will always smell good even if it's just shampoo.

2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder.

3. How cute they look when they sleep.

4. The ease in which they fit into our arms.

5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world.

6. How cute they are when they eat.

7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while.

8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside.

9. The way they look good no matter what they wear.

10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful girl on this earth.

11. How cute they are when they argue.

12. The way her hand always finds yours.

13. The way they smile.

14. The way you feel when you see their name on the your cell after you just had a big fight.

15. The way she says "lets not fightanymore" - even though you know that an hour later....

16. The way that they kiss after you have had a fight.

17. The way they kiss you when yousay "I love you".

18. Actually...Just the way they kissyou...

19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry.

20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly.

21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt. * i think every girl is guilty of this :)

22. Then the way they apologize whenit does hurt (even though we don't admit it).

23. The way they say "I miss you".

24. The way you miss them.

25. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore...

Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them it matters not.
Because once in your life,whatever they were to the world they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart.
We love them for a million reasons, no paper would do it justice.
It is athing not of the mind but of the heart.

A feeling.

Only felt

2007-07-04T17:25:00.000+08:00

sigh.......
juz came back from skool
there was mly oral juz now.
i was nervous but i gave it my best..
.....
as u can see i realli have no mood to post but i wan to
haiz...y??nvm..dun tok abt it 1st..
on moday 2nd july
i went to watch TRANSFORMERS with fadzil,fadhli,haziq syai n of coz nadhirah
aniwae,it was damn g8...
but the best part of the day was wen nadhirah kissed me several time on the cheeks wen we were watching the movie..
she play with my fingers n hands n she lean on me for comfort...
i wish i can turn back time to feel tat feeling again
aniwae it was a great day but tiring..nvm
next day...
i was back at skool...
the parade commander was not there
so i took the initiative to be the parade commander
it was a normal dae until dyg msg me tat night..
i agree with u dyg
ppl do change,but always remember u've changed too
juz make sure u wun hurt other wen u changed..
we became frenz again...n tats gud...no more hard feeling
but after dat..sumone spoilt my mood
i dun wan to say her name but u noe hu u are wen u read it..
wen i 1st started toking to u...
i have a new family member
den u become comfortable on me n tell ur probz
u've alwayz been my blood sister...we share the same probz everytime...
but wen i got to noe nadhirah...u drifted away from me..
why?!?!!n wen i ask u,u told me nuthing's wrong..
u noe me very well,i noe if sumthing's wrong or not!!
so i give u time to calm down..
but wen i appoligize to u n i wan to start anew,
all u can say is....wadever..
wadever??!!!
is tat all wad u have to say??!!!!
do u even care of wats the meaning of wad im saying??!!
u juz dun even care...
u always complain to me abt the sec4,saying tat they dun deserve any respect
do u tink i dun deserve respect??
wad did i ever do to u??
to love nadhirah??is tat wrong??!!
i've tried to be nice to u.
i've tried to give time n reflect wad u have did..
n tis is wad u give me??"wadver"??!!!
watz wrong in loving a gerl 5 years younger than u??!!
tis is my choice!!!my lyfe...
n her lyfe too...is her choice to choose hu she wan to love!!not u
so do u tink u deserve respect??
i respect u,n even be nice to u..
but wad gave??
do u tink i shud respect u??
i've told u once...never be a stepo
dun tink u r big...coz u ain't..
u'r juz a kid...
n still a kid...
grow up will u...n stop playing games with me..

2007-07-01T18:58:00.000+08:00

AHHHH
tmr im gonna meet nadhirah!!!
okok rasyid lek2

aniwae,i was at mac with eric n fadzil
we surppose to study for poa test
instead we tok abt tmr
yea they r comming too but for the movie onli
after the movie they go do their own stuff
aniwae,i juz realise tat tmr is youth day
public holiday n its gonna be packed!!
n i began to panic...n panic....n more panic!!!!!
AAAHHH!!!how the hell am i gonna buy tickets
n wad if nadhirah n her sis cant go??!!!
AAHHH!!!im dead!!
okok..calm down,gotta clam down
gotta kol her to conferm
but wad if her mum picks up???
wad if they cant go bcoz of me???
AAHHH!!!wad am i gonna do.???
haizz...kk...i gotta be strong...
i got to....
i kol n her mum ans(bad sign)...den she said nadhirah at the toilet
nvm...den i want to kol again...but wad if??!!!AAHH
y am i acting tis way??!!!y am i so scared!!!
den i pick myself up n kol...
thank god her sister pick the phone..
at least i can conferm with her
aniwae,they conferm going
so i can book the tickets earlier
yeaa!!!
i can watch TRANSFORMERS
at 3:40pm
plaza singapura

we're gonna meet up at 1pm at cck interchange
coz we have to be there at least half n hour earlier
bcoz after tat the tickets reserved is den sold...
haiz...kk..gotta to be early
aniwae,den Wan's mother kol my house?!?!!!
OMG!!!!what am i gonna do??
den i slowly tok
"ermm...sori i tink u hav the wrong number"
den its settle...
WAHLIOWEII!!!!
im sooo scared!!
GOD!!!HELP ME!!!!

2007-06-26T18:49:00.000+08:00

wooo!!!

wad a tiring day it was man..
kk first the chalet during 23 - 24 nov

Saturday,23 nov 2007
i went to chalet around 8pm

den i got a prob going in coz i got no money sia..

gud thing tat i bumped into nor,mimi,kak nurul...

pastu masok tkya bayar seh

hahaha..

den after go for the room first

amin,along n kak imah already reached there watching video

so i join dem with a guitar by my side

but it was getting bored so i went outside to grab a bite

haha,im hungry,wad do u expect

den i saw nor,kak sara n her husband

so i brought amin's guitar with me

den they asked me to sing to them a song
so i started to sing the song tat is sang by a singer

hahahaha..

1st is sharin - Sayangku

2nd i sang taufik batisah - Usah lepaskn

den i continued to sing belain jiwa

everyone started singing along

haha...it was a great feeling..

den i went to bed after we lepak2

i slept under a table coz there wasn't any much space

but it was ok though,i was juz sleeping for a few hours
coz i need to work later..

Sunday,24 Nov 2007

i went back to chalet after work n i slept until 10am..

after tat they woke me up n ask me to get ready...
i was lyke.."for wad??"

den the amazing ans came out

"we're going wild wild wet!!!"

yeaa!!!finally i got a chance to go there!!!

aniwae it was fantastic!!!!

we took some pics too check it out

the boyz

climb guyz!!adek carik ape??

us in the water

climb lagi..

peace

adek cute

mimi n me...

us after the whole swiming!!

haizz..den i had to go home early coz the next day was skool

haizz.damn it

skool has reopened

wah....so good...

aniwae there wasnt anything interesting for the 1st day of skool

accept i had to be the parade commander n my hair wad damn long...

so yar...

tats it...

2007-06-23T12:56:00.000+08:00

heyy...
i juz woke up...
im soo tired..the newspaper juz now was very thick..as always
but its was ok.at least i dun hav a tough time giving them
i had a tough day yesterdae..
for so long...now den dyg tag me..
nvm...i juz wan to apologize to dyg

dayang im soo sori i misunderstand
plz dayang!!forgive me
i noe u'r angry at me
n i noe u'r bz all the time
but plz hav a min to read tis..
dyg im sori im sori im sori imsori im sori im sori
its my fault..i noe
mayb its bcoz of the things happening to me rite now
mayb i've changed
mayb im lonely
or mayb i've been controling u..
u do need lyfe..n im sori im interfering with ur lyfe
will u forgive me dayang?
how can i make it up to u??
lastly,i juz wan to say im sori..
from the bottom of my heart...

if u dun wan to forgive me..
nvm...i understand..

2007-06-21T21:38:00.000+08:00

im not in the mood rite now...
totally im furious
1st my internet keep disconnecting
i feel lyke throwing the adapter away n break the screen of my labtop
thing became worse
titi haven yet tok to me
i dunnoe watz her prob towards me but i feel im not appreciate
i help u so far n u'r gonna ignore me juz lyke tat
tk gune aku tlg org
why everytime wen i help ppl,ppl dun appreciate me
ppl dunnoe tat im here
ppl dunnoe tat im lonely
some fren i had..

thx god i got frenz lyke nadhirah n dee2
dee2 juz kol me..
thx god,i got sumbody to tok to...
we tok abt an hour
thx dee2!!!

i missed nadhirah...
she went out tonite so i cant tok to nadhirah
haizz...nadhirah..

2007-06-21T00:45:00.000+08:00

i noe i shudnt posting anything at the hour.
juz couldnt sleep..
a lot of things is going through my mind now
juz now at skool,i still went for the english enrichment programme
but i didnt go for mr cheok lesson
i come back to that later
it was great being parade commander
u feel tat u r in charge of sumthing n taking charge
wad a great feeling...
some saymmy voice was loud n clear but still i got some much learn
the parade at 1st was taken charge to shabil
he replace me for today...
but i still got a chance to shout at the parade wen they practicing marching
aniwae,the feeling was than spolit wen i met mr cheok with his face was furious
faris n zaini was lucky they wasn't there with me
mr cheok scolded me for not attenting programme tat is set for us
he wasn't happy obviously but he didnt let me explain n juz dash off
come to tink of it,i came for the english enrichment class,tat i have paid
n the class was having a test n he never teaches a new topic..
so wats is his prob??wad exactly he is angry abt??
these thing made me confuse,n to add it more worse
he told mrs foo...shit...tat means bad news......very bad news
if this keeps up,ncc would be taken off n npcc might take over the parade
n i wud not be the parade commander!!!!NOOO!!!!PLZ!!!
I'VE BEEN WANTING TO HAVE THIS POST FOR 4 YEARS!!
N NOW U'R GONNA TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME??!!
PLZ...
den at home i saw titi online
from the look of it,i can see tat she is having a prob
so i ask...but she refuse to tell
i dunnoe why...my god titi??
wad happen to u??
u forgot im here izit??im trying to help u??
r u mad at me??wad did i do??
izit bcoz of wan nadhirah??is tat it?
since i met her,u changed..
why??i still dun understand??!!
why pplz r changing??
or did i changed??

no wonder i cant sleep n study....
these things always lingers in my mind....
why??
im confused...
why these bad things is happening to me????
what i've done??
Rey...is tat y u came??
wad can u do then?
nuthing can be done Rey..
nothing...

2007-06-19T20:55:00.000+08:00

heyhey...
i noe i noe...i never had been updated my blog
im so intense...n im frustrated
its been a realli bad week for me..
i dunnoe how to start...haizz..
1st,dayang...her changed attitude is getting on my nerves
my god dyg!!!
wad happen to u??
u'r not hu i used to noe on 19 May!!!
u'r used to be friendly,kind n sweet but nw??
u'r arrogant..
y??
i noe already...u got sumone else in mind..
u dun need to lie to me saying tat is ur bestfren...yar rite..
i noe u dun me animore...
hey dyg,if u happen to read my blog,here is a letter tat i suppose to giv it to u...but now its no use to giv u..

dear dayang
since u have been away,i can't stop thinking abt u
i'm not able to get u off my mind
you brought light from my darkness
let me tell u why
My ex,ira,is a gerl i once loved more than anything else,even myself
i tried to make her happy but we broke up
to make it more worse,she blamed me the break up on me..
the gerl i love most dumped me for another guy
the gerl i love most have stab me n watching me slowly dying
since than the wounds never completely healed
until i met u..
u gave me hope n things tat i never tot i'll have it again
tat is love...
tats why i can't afford to lose u...
i cant afford to lose the gerl i loved....again
i'll be waiting,as alwayz...
see ya soon...

in fact,i will not be seeing u soon
i juz lost a gerl i loved...again
is tat u gerlz trying to do??
use me???haiz..
no use complaining...u'r gone
im not trying to be sexist
but plz!!dun use a guy's heart wen u noe his love is pure!!
tats it...
i cant say it anymore
the more i say it,the more my heart is hurt
i guess the wound wud never heal

thx alot dyg
thx alot ira
thx...
for breaking my heart

2007-06-16T00:47:00.001+08:00

Melayang daku kasih
Di awangan biru
Ku terus terbang meninggi kasih

Di situ aku lihat kasih
Ada helang terbang
Dan ku ikut terbangnya ke sana

Dan aku tak bisa
Menyebut nama mu di sana
Kerna aku harus sendirian

Akan ku rasa begini
Akan ku terus mengerti
Biar apa yang terjadi
Ku pilih jalanku

Kau takkan dapat mengerti
Apa yang aku rasakan
Ini amat dalam
Terbebas ku dari kuasamu

Melayang daku kasih
Di awangan biru

Tak bisa aku hidup kasih
Dibawah kuasamu
Selagi ku mampu terbang jauh
Pantaskan sayapku
Di sana ada mentari kasih
Yang akan menyinar
Memusnahkan kuasa cintamu

Dan aku tak bisa
Menyebut nama mu di sana
Kerna aku harus sendirian

Akan ku rasa begini
Akan ku terus mengerti
Biar apa yang terjadi
Ku pilih jalanku

Kau takkan dapat mengerti
Apa yang aku rasakan
Ini amat dalam
Terbebas ku dari kuasamu

Akan ku rasa begini
Akan ku terus mengerti
Biar apa yang terjadi
Ku pilih jalanku

Kau takkan dapat mengerti
Apa yang aku rasakan
Ini amat dalam
Terbebasku dari kuasamu...
Terbebasku dari cintamu
Memusnahkan kuasa cintamu

Di sana ada mentari kasih
Yang akan menyinar
Memusnahkan kuasa cintamu
Oh..oh
Kuasa cintamu

2007-06-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

heyhey..
im here at my cuzzie house,azul
hahah...kakak yaya fetch me from yio chu kang mrt station
den after tat we fetch azul at clementi ite
den we go to esplanade tp fetch midah..
den go home!!!hahaha...on the way there we were lyke CRAZY!!!
we sang on out way home n all of the ppl around us was lyke thinkin "wad the hell tis person is doin sing loudly???"
hahahahahahah
den azul n me do home while midah n kak yaya go where i dunnoe
they will be back soon...

before i went out juz now,
sisTT wanna tok to me...
i look at her blog juz now...
poor gerl,at a age lyke tis,she lost her abg angkat.
well we cant do anything abt it...
god loves him more den we do..
we cant do anything TT
we juz can onli pray n hope for the best for him...
i noe hows it feel lyke to lose a person we love unexpectedly
but we must move on in lyfe...
ur dun wan to see u cry wen he leave...
so dun be sad abt it...
its how lyfe is...ppl live n die..u cant change it..
once he leave,he wun come back..
juz remember tat he is looking after u..
it is how lyfe goes sis...
u have to accept it...

2007-06-11T20:14:00.000+08:00

My world is closing in I'm so alone
The door is locked and nobody’s home
Desire is the key that I must own
Emotions got me losing control
I'm losing control

But I know
It's the way that I must live
Even though
It's so unclear, so unfair
God I know
There's a path for everyone
I must believe and keep holding on

I’m wishing I was somebody else
This world left me all by myself
Now why do they keep playing with my mind
Trying to break me down trying to make me blin
But I see

Cuz I know
It’s the way that I must live
Even though
It’s so unclear, so unfair
God I know
There's a path everyone
I must believe and keep holding on

God I know
There’s a path for everyone
I must believe and keep holding on
Never let my fears conquer me
Cuz I know in my heart what I can be
Holding on...

2007-06-09T23:02:00.000+08:00

sigh............penat man!!!juz came back from work...
from 4:30pm to 8:30
i onli work 2 hrs but i spend the rest if the time to watch the spore festival at youth park
there r bboyz n there's a bboy competition...
farhan was there n i came to support him n wished him gud luck
his crew rock babe!!!
radikal forze...

aniwae,yesterdae was more rushing day...
after smbyg jumaat,i got to get ready for bbq laterz,
i'll be bringing charcoal ,n to add to my rushy-ness
i ride my bike with charcoal
the charcoal was not tat heavy
it was ok-ok
den we play soccer the whole day
den during the nite we ate n i played guitar to nad n rafa'ah
den after i sang i gtg
coz mama going umrah
gotta go to the airport
got no time to change n to eat
i was DAMN hungry at the met
den i saw akak siti
wad the hell??she also late??stupid sister
aniwae i slept the whole journey coz im soooooo tired
den we reached the airport i saw mama b4 she go....
adek was sooo noisy...but i can see on her eyes tat she is sad,poor gerl..
aniwae we went popeyes to eat....FINAALLLYY!!!
den we went home by taxi coz the last mrt has left..
haizz..waste money

den today i missed MAMA!!!!
n things have become more complicated
dad has become more furious n more strict to small little things
n akak has become more merepek den ever
den afiqah has become more playful n naughty
amin pon da lagi mepek
nurul buat keje sendiri..as usual....pentingkn diri sendiri
angah maseh in the house n out the house
never stay....asek2 nk pegi johor
along same je....furious as ever

for me???
i dunnoe...i go out more tis time....
i tink....but i go out for a gud reason
not bad..............

hiazzz......im tired man!!!!!!!!!!!
gtg...
sleep....
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

2007-06-07T19:35:00.001+08:00

yeaaa!!!!!!!!!!finally got in!!!haizzz best man!!

for u all wanna noe,i cant update my blog these few dayzcoz i cant get in the internet...

yeaa!!!!

ok let begin with 4 june,monday

dayang came back from nepal...so sad,i cant be there wen she came,

i wasnt informed of her arrival

aniwae the whole day i cant msg her,she was feeling sick

nvm

5 june tuesday

hmmmm.........boring as usuali cant keep my eyes open...hahaha,so sleepy

aniwae nuthing interesting happen during these few dayz

juz i cant msg dayang coz she bz...

6june wednesdayanother boring day a class

but.....we went town!!!!!!!

me fadzil,guna,eric,kwee ming,ruzainin faris

but faris at last must go home b4 we even go to town

aniwae,we lacked around there den i met akid!!!!!!

hahaha..our brother
i bought a new cap!!!yea!!!!!!!
at last i got it,check it out

does it look good on me???

green colour........

den today,sooooooooooo boring with mdm pua....

haizz....i slept the whole day after her lesson...

hahaha...

gtg....not to sleep

2007-06-03T13:14:00.000+08:00

yeaa!!!!i change my blogskin......again...hahahaha
tkde keje ar...the previous one look so boring
hahahaa...ok..
yesterday i was soo boring man..
i wan to study but fadzil is away to KL
haizz....wad to do..
so i decided to go aniwae to the jurong libry
i was alone.....as alwayz
i finished my phy wrksheet but the rest i leave it
coz i go no mood lah..
aniwae,after studying i go home n pass the pasar mlm
den i bought some colour angkle socks
n move on...den i saw a ex-tecwhyean..working in a kebab store
luckly she never saw me...hahaha
i wun tell u hu..
u gotta find it for urself
haizz....how abt todae??
lagi boring....
everyone out,im alone at home
den lorrein msg me..yea!!!i got work!!
but its on 4pm
damn!!!so long??i gotta wait for 2 hrs
wat im gonna do in tis 2 hrs??
writing post??
haizzz...no thx...
nvm den...juz wait
juz remember.im short of money...
i need it..so have to sacrifice...
hahahaha...

OMG!!!i juz remembered
today is sunday!!
tomorrow dayang is coming back!!!
yea!!!!!hahahaha...
i waiting for her mother to msg me the time she's comming back..
haiz....wait game again......
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2007-06-01T18:25:00.000+08:00

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im bored to death............

there r lessons but im soooo bored......................

...............................................................................

7 dayz have passed
although its been onli a week
i felt i waited for a year
haizz......

i missed u dayang!!!!
i can't wait wen u get back!!!
r u missing me??
telling myself....
3 more dayz left....
3 more dayz left...

i cant even stop thinking abt u for 3 sec!!!!!
how can i dun missed u!!!!
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i'll be waiting.......

2007-05-28T22:59:00.000+08:00

AAAAHHHH!!!!!im late for my exam!!!!
OMG IT 9AM!!!!
AHHHH!!!!!
my paper start at 8:30!!!!
aahhh!!!!
help2!!!
i immediately zoom with my cloths on n get on my bike
den i zooommmmm beating the lightz n bending every rulez
ahhahaha...
i almost meet with an accident wen some guy wanted to make a right turn den i zoommm
toward the direction he's going n we nearly collided
hahaha aniwae wen i reached to skool
i immediately go to my table
there are faces full of qns,wondering why is tis guy late
haha...den i calm myself n start the paper.
the paper was quite ez lah....can say lah
i can finish it in an hour
hahaha..den i still got time to sleep 30 mins
hahaha...sial je...
after paper 1 i straight away go to the toillet n wet my hair
my hair look lyke Afro!!!
hahaha...i never put shampooo
den u try to make it nice n meet my frenz...they all asked me the damn same qns
i was to tired to ans them
haiz...den paper 2
alah the paper lyke doin hwk sia...
hahaha....after the paper fadzil n i go to lot 1 buy iceblended
den he wan to go to ljs but its pack sia...so many ppl
so he decided to pack onli
hah...den i go home n sleepppp
zzzzzzzzz.........
zzzzzzzzzzzzzz............

2007-05-25T21:11:00.000+08:00

hyeheyhye!!!!!

today was one of the best day of my lyfe...hahaha..
okokok

1st thing 1st

its was the last day of skool

n we slack siak...all the way tok n not do our work

hahaha.so boring

o lvl MT is Monday!!!AAAAHHHH

hahaha....so fast sia..

kkk gotta make it rite man..

hahaha,i clear tis paper n im have less subjects to study

aniwae after smbyg jumaat

i went to bishan to send dayang to the airport

wen i was at the mrt,my heart beat faster everytime i reached to another station

hahaha den i saw her...

she was like.."WOW"

hahaha...

n we began toking

wen the mrt came i hold her hand to the mrt

i wasnt suppose to do tat

haha n she says its alrite

haha....n we began toking n toking

but the irritating part is wen she msging

every sec noe she sms her abg angkat lah,adek angkat lah n so many more ar..

hahaha..biase lah,nk pegi luar negeri...rindu..

we took some pic too

check tis out

hahaha...aniwae wen we were at the mrt towards changi airport,
i held my hand behind her back to comfort her n she lean towards me..

haizz....she body is warm n i can feel her heartbeat

after tat we went to the airport,den we realise sumthing

WE ARE 1HOur EARLY

hahahahahaha

so we sat down n tok

den she gave me a letter n ask me to read it after she's gone

den i gave her a letter too but it is folded to a small cute car n ask her to open it at the aeroplane

hahaha...mcm da plan gitu eh?hahaha

den we wen to to row 7 for her to check in

den we go lunch n there is where i knew her mother...

her mother was there n she tot tat im dayang's boyfren

hahaha...can be ar...hahah i hope so i will

anyway during lunch,dayang ate sooooo sllooowwww ssiiaa!!!!

hahaha

i finish my meal(fries,burger n coke)

n she onli ate half of the burger

hahaha....den after lunch,its time to say goodbye

dayang's mother was crying n im gonna missed her too

i even msg her b4 she got to the aeroplane..haha sempat sehhh...

den i gave my num to her mother if there is any news of her n wen she come back to spore

haiz....im missing her already..

well hope she'll have a good time there...

n i hope wen she come back,she will give her ans...

if u noe wad i mean

for those hu don't den nvm...

hahaha

gtg

sleeppy man...

see ya!!!!

2007-05-24T21:19:00.000+08:00

hyeee!!!!soo boring sia..
juz kol farhana...she lyke sort siket sak...hahaha
den today was at skool,i was sleepy sia..
i dunnoe wad happen to me...
i was paying attention but everything in my mind is blank
hahaha...i dunnoe why,tis few dayz my head lyke sort i tink...
dunnoe lah,i tink bcoz dayang is leaving tomorow
haizz...i gonna missed her
in fact im already missing her
every seconds
every minutes
every breath i took
she is on my mind
hhaiizz........
she knew my secret already
stupid ana n imah
i hope she dun mind

aniwae,juz now got games week for the sec 3s
i watch qilah play floorball
raihanah n fadila play badminton
meerah,lydia,lyn,fika n nabila play captain ball
den i saw her
so what??lyke i care...
aniwae,juz now i accompanied raihana while waiting for her turn
we tok so much n she can even punch me on my arm...
oucch!!hahaha,den u punch her back..
den i go out n saw iskandar,farhan n harith play soccer
mcm best gitu dorg maen
i wish there is games week for the sec 5
haiz...syg,kiteorg kene blajar
next week o lvl MT
tkde harapan aku nk pass
jgn harap lah nk dptkn distinction
hahah
ok lah i have to pack my bags for tomorow
oohh yar i forgot,tomoro go onli MT
haha so tkya nk pikir2 panjang
hahahaahahaha
okokokok

signing off
rasyidiz
rush-it

peace!!!!

2007-05-20T22:12:00.000+08:00

hye!!!im soo bored man,its a gud thing dayang was online
i wounldnt be bored...hahaha
im not working today,too tired
yesterday,i give out 1000 flyers in 3 hrs...tats long man
i used to give out in one n a half hrs
hhahaa
maybe it was my unlucky day
aniwae i say syamir yesterdae at cineleisure
he took part in a competition n the third price was psp!!!
wah!!!i always wan to get my hands on those
haha...the finals was todae,well i certainly hope he won
aniwae,yesterdae SIStiti was sad n depressed
haizz....her heart was broken...poor gerl
DON'T WORRY TITI IM HERE!!!BROrasyid will make everything better...

den there r more....
dayang is going to nepal
im gonna miss her
haha...nvm at least i got to say goodbye
goodbye dayang!!!!
i miss u!!!!

2007-05-18T21:01:00.000+08:00

.............haiz...so bored man
i juz came back from gym with fadzil,fadhli n haziq
i got cramps everywhere man..
haiz..den there was a time wen we dont noe how to use an equipment den fadhli juz hentam said tat u must do a certain thing den we got scolded bcoz we r using it wrongly
hahaha kecoh sia!!den fadhli ran n hide while me n fadzil kena lecture haha...
aniwae,yesterday aslo i go gym with khairil,daud,taqeem,faris n fadzil
waoh damn cramped sia!!!
cannot tahan animore
cant write anything more
doctor!!!doctor!!!

2007-05-16T15:58:00.000+08:00

yeaa!!!!!i can post already!!!!hahaha!!!
it's been a long time i never post anything in my blog man!!!
hahaha...so frustated sia..im bored without posting anything
everytime i see it,it looks the same....
haiz...today tired sai,juz now help mr cheok carry things
penat siol!!!haha den fadzil kol guna bangla
hahaha...damn kecoh sia
den juz now i wan to step skateboard stupid fadzil made me fall
hahah n ellydia,katini n their frenz was there n saw me
n they laughed at me...hahahaha!!!
malu sak!!!!

den i saw HER
i walk pass her
we r complete stranger from now on
i forgot the feeling i had
i forgot the things i have done tat is got sumthing got to do with her
she have completely left my mind
n im glad it did

aniwae back to the topic
dad wanna take my labtop
i hate him!!!
i noe he brought it
but it has become a part of me
n he is juz taking away juz like tat
stupid...
i got nothing to say any more
i noe his secret now...
i noe dad...
u r a *****
u'r having an a*****
u cant hide it from me
we already noe from the start
yes we...

2007-05-07T21:30:00.000+08:00

today is the 7th of may
its her bdae...i haven forgotten
its still lingering in my mind...
i wished her happi bdae...
tats all i can do...
i cant bring her out
i cant hug her
i cant kiss her
i cant do the thing i use to do
juz onli a handshake
as the two hands was in contact with each other,
memories flashed back on my brain
i was waiting for tis day but it was spoilt wen we broke up
i cant tink wen i take my time practice
until wen farez(not faris in 5A) bring me back to life again
he made me realise how she has made me suffer
n i'm crying for nothing
Now i realise how she has done wrong...
how can be soooo stupid abt tis!!!
how can i let it go pass through me???
she dun loves me anymore n go for another guy
wad does it shows???!!!!
she is using me!!!
she don't appriciate wad i've done for her!!!
is tat it??hah??!!
i love u as much i love myself
i treat u lyke a princess
n tis is how u repay me??!!!
u make stories n blame the break-up on me!!!
wad did i do??!!!dun give me excuses!!!!

i've done so many things for u..
i've made sacrifice for u
i never tot u'll be like tis
if u hate me so much n u tink im bad
den get tis

YOU ARE A BITCH
WHO ONLI CARE FOR URSELF
N NEVER CARE ABT OTHERZ!!!
I HATE U EVEN MORE

my frenz r rite...
ur juz using me
if u tink zaini is bad
i tink u r far worse than him
u'r nothing to me anymore
n remember tis

I'LL NEVER FORGIVE U...
N I WILL REMEMBER WAD U'VE DONE TO ME

2007-05-05T22:06:00.000+08:00

heyhey!!!juz came back home from cineleisure watch spiderman 3!!!!!

hahaa..its fun man!!worth it noe

i went out with guna,zaini n her gerl,taqeem n her gerl,boon paw,kwee meng n my best buddy fadzil...hehe

aniwae,b4 the movie,i saw aishah n her mum n her sis

guna gave her a flying kiss n her mum saw it!!!

hahaha!!!!damn kecoh sia!!!

haha,den guna kene lecture by her mum in malay

hahaha...but i noe she was juz joking onli lah

i also kene lecture from her mum

juz bcoz guna gave aishah a flying kiss

guna did it n i kena oso...

haha,her mum was damn naggy sia

she threw so manyqns tat i cant turned soundless n n motionless

haha...wad to do,most mothers r lyke tat

den after the movie we went to play pool

zaini had to send his gerl home n taqqem's gerl have to go home

so left onli me,fadzil,guna,kwee meng,boonpaw n taqeem

after tat we go home...waH!!!so tired,yet i still can type more...

todae was g8 but the memories left is still in my heart..at the long john silver..still remeber

nvm...dun wan to tok abt it

i had fun today..but there's something missing in my heart..

time to change

2007-05-03T18:41:00.000+08:00

hey..so long time never update my blog
haizz..wad to do,i faced the computer everyday but i never update
everytime i do,i dunnoe wad to say
todae was diff..
i learn to move on
i have to do so coz i dun wan to end up crying all the time
.......time to change,i need to.....
i've been trying to forgot her but her memories kept haunting me
i dunnoe why...
i gotta learn to let it go......
next week is her bdae
i dunnoe i shud have a final goodbye
i wan to her beautiful eyes..
enough...i dun wan to go tat far

Even in my heart,I see
You're not being true to me
Deep within my soul, I feel
Nothing's like it used to be
Sometimes I wish I could
Turn back time
Impossible as it may seem
But I wish I could
So bad,
Quit playing games with my heart

2007-04-29T15:51:00.000+08:00

hey guyz..im soo bored today,got no mood to study..
im not using my labtop now,dad's using it
damn man!!!im not used to it
stupid,computer ader bagos2 tk nk gune kn..
haiz...
juz now i go to the street soccer court with my lil bro,amin
he wanted to play so much so accompanied him
then we play for onli one hour so its juz a short game
in between,a stranger came by n play with us
so he starts shooting n i start training...again
den me n amin went home n he continued playing
after tat i sign in msn---at the computer,not the labtop
i cant leave without computers
they r a part of me
nvm
den i saw HER online n i saw
"mum......im in love again"
my heart broke
every word has make my heartbeat slower n slower
until i wish tat its stop
then my mind remebered the words tat i saw in her blog
it kept playing with my mind

to that boy used to love...
just forget me...
i dont love u anymore....
and there's nothing that can change it...
no use crying...
be a man...
i hate guys who cry for me...
as if im that good...
as if im evenworth the tears...
u're not letting go...
but i am...
cant u just accept life?
i learnt to accept mine and move on...
why cant u?
anyway,the person who even started about the break-up was you...
aliff told me that u told arinah that we alreadybroke up...
why dont u just listen to them...
end this relationship...
and like u said...
love cant be forced...
if true love were forever...
i wouldnt have lost my love for u
if u stay on being like this...
im gonna hate u even more but to u
i want to apologize...
for the heartbreak and your suffering..
you're a nice guy...
everybody says that..
i know that too...
but i dont deserve u
u deserve someone better
im a *****
and a nice guy like u
should just forget a ***** like me

i remembered it...
word after word
it never did left my mind
everytime i read it
each word took my breath away
my heart cracks every sentence
my eyes filled with water every word
my heart broke at the end of it
yes it is hard to move on
i noe...juz giv me time
i need a break..
if i had one day,juz one day to spend time with u
i would make it the best in ur life
but if tat cant happened
juz give me a minute or two
to look into your eyes
n remember the things we go through
n to say the three last words

but its no use...
everything has ended
everything has gone

2007-04-27T15:02:00.000+08:00

hey guyz!!juz now was mid-year exam...it was english man n everyone was dead serious...everyone was studying,hoping they can pass their english...haha...i was one of them n im so worried on my narrative.its been a long time i never wrote an essay..but still i manage to go through it eventhough i was stuck in between..haha,nvm i dun wan to remember the past...

juz now during our break,i saw her n her frenz..stupid guna,dun remind me next time plz??
she looked at my eyes n i looked at hers...her eyes bring me memories from the past..
memories abt the gerl hu i used to loved or shud i say still love...
haiz..
its hard...eventhough i go through tis b4 but it wasnt the same...
maybe i was not gud enough for her..
its ok..i understand
i said tis b4 n im gonna say tis again
goodbye

2007-04-25T22:27:00.001+08:00

hey...man,im so tired...i juz came back from the hospital..for u guyz out who want to know why i went to the hospital n why i went home early yesterday is bcoz my big brother is having an operation..so i have be there for him..well as they say,family comes 1st..
aniwae,as i was at the MRT train juz now,i saw so many couples...
it reminds me of ira..again
damn it man!!!
den i look at my watch--it was 25 april
haiz..n it reminded me of the day on 26 jan
the 1st date i had..
arrgh!!!!i got to forget all of these things!!!
its killing me!!!
why am i still thinking of her when she already dumped me!!!!
AARRGGH!!!!

kk...remember wad she said "move on in live"
even the things she wrote at her blog, i can still remember!!
every word she decribe her thoughts,every sentence made a deep breath
i can still remember...
HEELLP MEEE!!!!

the time to change

2007-04-23T17:21:00.000+08:00

hey guyz,juz came from skool...haiz,not in the mood as u noe y..
im still tink abt her..i cant sleep yesterdae night,come on lah its onli been a day!!
give me time will u??!!
sigh...nvm,no use argueing
i've tried to delete her pic,burn her letters but i cant do it..
the best thing i've done is gave her back her our aniversary card..
i cant let it go..i dunnoe why..
i noe its sound ridiculous but it's true..
time have change n things have to move on
she made her point,move on
love cannot be forced...
wad can i do..its my luck
n wad a bad luck...
things has changed n wad has pass had past
nuthing can change it but we can onli change the future

time has fly n onli it left us with memories

memories i hope to forget but still in my mind n mainly on my heart

time is needed to wash it away but some how the memories either stays or cleared or it will even returned...

goodbye

2007-04-22T22:27:00.000+08:00

to the person i love most:
thank you for telling me truth n how u felt
now i understand
but why never told me?
u noe i can help u...
haiz...no use telling me now,n no use argueing
n for ur info,i'll never tell arinah we've broke up
if tis is true,y am i crying for u??
stop blaming it to others n start blaming it on urself
n i shud also coz im also at wrong
im sori im not there for u wen u needed me most
im sori for the things i've done to made u sad
n im sori to be in love with u..
if i didnt,than tis wudnt happened
well than,tats it...
every effort i've made has gone down the drain..
every moment we've spend time together has been crushed
every second being with had made my lyfe shine
but thx aniwae,for letting me feel the true love from a gerl

there is onli one word to say now
goodbye..